Why am I so Awkward /u/crazy_cat_lady21 Sex

I’m a 29 year old female and I grew up with parents who never talked about sex or really showed affection in front of me and I believe that messed me up because now I’m so awkward, I’ve been with my husband almost 13 years and I am very sexual and have a high sex drive but I don’t know how to express it and so that holds me back from being as sexual ad I want with my husband which drives me insane because our sex life could be fucking amazing because the things i want to do would blow my husbands mind. I’m so awkward I hate it, I think if I do something sexual my husband is going to think I’m weird or that I’ll look stupid which I know is so far from the truth so I don’t know what my problem is. How does someone just get past this

I’m a 29 year old female and I grew up with parents who never talked about sex or really showed affection in front of me and I believe that messed me up because now I’m so awkward, I’ve been with my husband almost 13 years and I am very sexual and have a high sex drive but I don’t know how to express it and so that holds me back from being as sexual ad I want with my husband which drives me insane because our sex life could be fucking amazing because the things i want to do would blow my husbands mind. I’m so awkward I hate it, I think if I do something sexual my husband is going to think I’m weird or that I’ll look stupid which I know is so far from the truth so I don’t know what my problem is. How does someone just get past this