How can I get over my fear of having sex with my partner again? /u/uselessparano Sex

Last year, my partner and I (21m/f) went on a three month break, as we called it, but really broke up because I felt the relationship wasn’t working for me, especially because we weren’t having sex. We reconnected at the end of the summer, and tonight we’ll be going away for a weekend, and I think we’ll be having sex again tonight. During the break, I didn’t want to see anyone else, but did have one encounter with someone. I haven’t asked her if she did anything during the break, and she hadn’t asked me either. In my encounter, we didn’t even do anything that would warrant getting an STI, as we both used our hands, nobody came, and no fluids were exchanged otherwise. I didn’t even kiss this person. Since then, I’ve visited doctors, got tested at 3 weeks, 6 weeks, and three months after contact, even as drs told me not to go back because I was being paranoid, and my sti test results were negative each time. I’ve been with my partner since reconnecting again anyways, so haven’t done anything sexual since the encounter in mid-July. In about December, my penis started to hurt a lot, and a subsequent visit to the dr also allayed my fears. She said everything looks healthy down there, and it was likely the fact my underwear or pants were too tight causing discomfort. My frenulum still hurts, and another visit to my dr last week got me the same answer, with him telling me the pain isn’t sti related, but more related to moisture issues or pants, or whatever friction is causing it (I think I over masturbated). I can still pull my foreskin back, it just feels sore down there, but at the end of the day, I’m just worried about giving them an STI, even though I’ve been assured by multiple doctors it’s not possible to have gotten anything from my encounter, not even HPV. Im just being paranoid, no? I need a bit of reassurance from others with experience on menu g with multiple people, as my partner is the only person I’ve ever had sex with, done oral with, or even kissed. I’m a mix of fear, anxiety, performance pressure, and a bit of guilt, even though I followed the rule of the break we made, and just need some cool heads to calm me down, or at least be honest with me. Thanks

Last year, my partner and I (21m/f) went on a three month break, as we called it, but really broke up because I felt the relationship wasn’t working for me, especially because we weren’t having sex. We reconnected at the end of the summer, and tonight we’ll be going away for a weekend, and I think we’ll be having sex again tonight. During the break, I didn’t want to see anyone else, but did have one encounter with someone. I haven’t asked her if she did anything during the break, and she hadn’t asked me either. In my encounter, we didn’t even do anything that would warrant getting an STI, as we both used our hands, nobody came, and no fluids were exchanged otherwise. I didn’t even kiss this person. Since then, I’ve visited doctors, got tested at 3 weeks, 6 weeks, and three months after contact, even as drs told me not to go back because I was being paranoid, and my sti test results were negative each time. I’ve been with my partner since reconnecting again anyways, so haven’t done anything sexual since the encounter in mid-July. In about December, my penis started to hurt a lot, and a subsequent visit to the dr also allayed my fears. She said everything looks healthy down there, and it was likely the fact my underwear or pants were too tight causing discomfort. My frenulum still hurts, and another visit to my dr last week got me the same answer, with him telling me the pain isn’t sti related, but more related to moisture issues or pants, or whatever friction is causing it (I think I over masturbated). I can still pull my foreskin back, it just feels sore down there, but at the end of the day, I’m just worried about giving them an STI, even though I’ve been assured by multiple doctors it’s not possible to have gotten anything from my encounter, not even HPV. Im just being paranoid, no? I need a bit of reassurance from others with experience on menu g with multiple people, as my partner is the only person I’ve ever had sex with, done oral with, or even kissed. I’m a mix of fear, anxiety, performance pressure, and a bit of guilt, even though I followed the rule of the break we made, and just need some cool heads to calm me down, or at least be honest with me. Thanks