Went through a gay phase, now I dunno how to be straight /u/Balazinga Sex

To keep it short, I thought I was gay for 10 years, ever since I’ve developed quasi romantic feelings for a guy on the Internet. I didn’t feel that with women, so my mind immediately latched on that I may be gay or at least bi with male preference. We had a relationship but after a year we broke up due to fizzling feelings. I have tried to pursue relationships with men, but always felt anxiety and quickly broke it off – I still hoped a right guy would come along someday.

It all changed over a year ago – my mind decided that enough is enough and I started being drawn towards women visually. It’s not a bi cycle, let’s start with that. Previously I paid no attention to women, but now it feels like each time I see long hair, I’m instinctually drawn towards that (sometimes even on males).

After dealing with a massive amount of internalized heterophobia (it’s a fucking real thing, stop denying it isn’t), I have come to terms that I may be straight – I haven’t really been drawn towards men and feel a little disgusted whenever a guy makes a move on me.

I want to give women a try, but I don’t really know how to connect with them and get rid of feelings that I don’t want to be with women.

This whole thing makes me anxious and I’m alienating myself from my friends due to that.

To keep it short, I thought I was gay for 10 years, ever since I’ve developed quasi romantic feelings for a guy on the Internet. I didn’t feel that with women, so my mind immediately latched on that I may be gay or at least bi with male preference. We had a relationship but after a year we broke up due to fizzling feelings. I have tried to pursue relationships with men, but always felt anxiety and quickly broke it off – I still hoped a right guy would come along someday.

It all changed over a year ago – my mind decided that enough is enough and I started being drawn towards women visually. It’s not a bi cycle, let’s start with that. Previously I paid no attention to women, but now it feels like each time I see long hair, I’m instinctually drawn towards that (sometimes even on males).

After dealing with a massive amount of internalized heterophobia (it’s a fucking real thing, stop denying it isn’t), I have come to terms that I may be straight – I haven’t really been drawn towards men and feel a little disgusted whenever a guy makes a move on me.

I want to give women a try, but I don’t really know how to connect with them and get rid of feelings that I don’t want to be with women.

This whole thing makes me anxious and I’m alienating myself from my friends due to that.