I’m afraid of sex. What can I do? /u/art3-m1ss Sex

I’m afraid of sex. How do I fix this? I’m 21 and I’ve had about 30 sexual partners. I lost my virginity when I was 15 and was raped. After that, I started to be afraid of sexual contact. My first boyfriend was really bothered by it. So after the breakup, I decided that I would have sex until I wasn’t afraid of it anymore. That’s why I slept with so many people. I thought I had succeeded because I wasn’t afraid of one-night stands anymore. But whenever I got close to someone, I started to be afraid again. I don’t give in so easily now, that era is over. What can I do? I don’t want to be afraid. I feel like sex is about satisfying the other person, but I don’t think about myself because I feel like I’m not important.

I’m afraid of sex. How do I fix this? I’m 21 and I’ve had about 30 sexual partners. I lost my virginity when I was 15 and was raped. After that, I started to be afraid of sexual contact. My first boyfriend was really bothered by it. So after the breakup, I decided that I would have sex until I wasn’t afraid of it anymore. That’s why I slept with so many people. I thought I had succeeded because I wasn’t afraid of one-night stands anymore. But whenever I got close to someone, I started to be afraid again. I don’t give in so easily now, that era is over. What can I do? I don’t want to be afraid. I feel like sex is about satisfying the other person, but I don’t think about myself because I feel like I’m not important.