He (M) and I (F) are both in our early twenties. He has been with other women sexually before me, where he is my first boyfriend and lover. I struggle a lot with insecurities and his past eats away at them. I don’t know the details of his past besides he’s been with multiple women and claims to never have loved them, he’s only loved me he says. It still feels painful to think about. I feel like I am fighting with the ghosts of these women constantly, through comparison, feeling inferior. I was a virgin before my boyfriend and had thought I’d stay one until marriage. That didn’t last once we started dating lol.
What troubles me as well is my sexuality. I have accepted that I am bisexual recently, I always tried to deny it when I was younger. I struggle with wanting to explore with women, and that confuses me since I feel so much hurt from my boyfriends past, how could I want to inflict the same pain? I keep constantly fantasizing about being with another woman, her touch, her taste, to feel her warm breast in my hand, to feel every sweet curve of her body. I feel resentment towards my boyfriend that he got to experience this (and also still hurt at his past, confusing I know) when I feel trapped and tied to only one person for life. I do love my boyfriend, I hope to marry him, but I can’t stop these obsessive thoughts.
I’m not sure how to move past the hurt of his past even though I know logically it had nothing to do with me and was before we started dating. I also feel like I am allowing myself to indulge too much in my fantasies and fear it will cause problems in our relationship. Our sex life is okay, I feel inadequate and broken sometimes as I feel like I’ve never “finished” before. Sex is so complicated and I’m struggling to stay afloat with these converging thoughts. How can I get over the past? How can I explore my sexuality without jeopardizing our relationship?
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r/sex He (M) and I (F) are both in our early twenties. He has been with other women sexually before me, where he is my first boyfriend and lover. I struggle a lot with insecurities and his past eats away at them. I don’t know the details of his past besides he’s been with multiple women and claims to never have loved them, he’s only loved me he says. It still feels painful to think about. I feel like I am fighting with the ghosts of these women constantly, through comparison, feeling inferior. I was a virgin before my boyfriend and had thought I’d stay one until marriage. That didn’t last once we started dating lol. What troubles me as well is my sexuality. I have accepted that I am bisexual recently, I always tried to deny it when I was younger. I struggle with wanting to explore with women, and that confuses me since I feel so much hurt from my boyfriends past, how could I want to inflict the same pain? I keep constantly fantasizing about being with another woman, her touch, her taste, to feel her warm breast in my hand, to feel every sweet curve of her body. I feel resentment towards my boyfriend that he got to experience this (and also still hurt at his past, confusing I know) when I feel trapped and tied to only one person for life. I do love my boyfriend, I hope to marry him, but I can’t stop these obsessive thoughts. I’m not sure how to move past the hurt of his past even though I know logically it had nothing to do with me and was before we started dating. I also feel like I am allowing myself to indulge too much in my fantasies and fear it will cause problems in our relationship. Our sex life is okay, I feel inadequate and broken sometimes as I feel like I’ve never “finished” before. Sex is so complicated and I’m struggling to stay afloat with these converging thoughts. How can I get over the past? How can I explore my sexuality without jeopardizing our relationship? submitted by /u/randopersonhere [link] [comments]
He (M) and I (F) are both in our early twenties. He has been with other women sexually before me, where he is my first boyfriend and lover. I struggle a lot with insecurities and his past eats away at them. I don’t know the details of his past besides he’s been with multiple women and claims to never have loved them, he’s only loved me he says. It still feels painful to think about. I feel like I am fighting with the ghosts of these women constantly, through comparison, feeling inferior. I was a virgin before my boyfriend and had thought I’d stay one until marriage. That didn’t last once we started dating lol.
What troubles me as well is my sexuality. I have accepted that I am bisexual recently, I always tried to deny it when I was younger. I struggle with wanting to explore with women, and that confuses me since I feel so much hurt from my boyfriends past, how could I want to inflict the same pain? I keep constantly fantasizing about being with another woman, her touch, her taste, to feel her warm breast in my hand, to feel every sweet curve of her body. I feel resentment towards my boyfriend that he got to experience this (and also still hurt at his past, confusing I know) when I feel trapped and tied to only one person for life. I do love my boyfriend, I hope to marry him, but I can’t stop these obsessive thoughts.
I’m not sure how to move past the hurt of his past even though I know logically it had nothing to do with me and was before we started dating. I also feel like I am allowing myself to indulge too much in my fantasies and fear it will cause problems in our relationship. Our sex life is okay, I feel inadequate and broken sometimes as I feel like I’ve never “finished” before. Sex is so complicated and I’m struggling to stay afloat with these converging thoughts. How can I get over the past? How can I explore my sexuality without jeopardizing our relationship?
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