25, 3 YOE – health problems and want to quit? /u/NotHim40 CSCQ protests reddit

Hey, so I don’t really know who to go with this. I’m not rich, so I don’t know if I have the luxury to quit. I work in Canada for a decent company not making crazy money but something decent. I have 14k saved up, no car, live with my parents. I help them pay bills and other things which basically lead to ~1k in expenses. I invest and spend more here and there taking away almost my first pay cheque.

Saving only the second one. Recently I’ve been trying to invest more and trying other things so my savings have been even less. But recently my anxiety has been through the roof. I am getting tests done because I think something is wrong with my heart but still waiting on results. I keep getting sick, once one health problem goes away I get another one. I had an addiction to weed before which I don’t do anymore because of my health issues. It helped me a lot until it didn’t.

I don’t think I get paid enough to take on the stress I do and still get implied by others that I’m stupid. Struggling and always stumbling, expecting to handle problems much out of my scope and things that I haven’t really heard of other juniors tackling. Expected to get work done yet no OT pay, eventually things get tight and I have to OT anyway. I’m always thinking about my tasks outside of work, and at work I can’t focus at times cause I keep thinking I can’t figure it out. I take on tasks other seniors should be handling but with only 3 YEO my title is “Intermediate”. But all the stress seems to be really taking its toll on me.

I’ve even had nervous system issues and so many tests that say I have nothing but a vitamin D deficiency and the doctors say my muscles twitch like I’ve been working out 2-3 times a day (I don’t even do that much in a week cause of exhaustion).

This has been happening for 1.5 years now, and not only do I not feel like doing anything. All my side projects go to waste because I get sick, burn money, and then lose both. Hence my savings being so bad.

I want to quit, even as I write this my legs shaking and hearts beating to the point I want to call an ambulance. If I quit my parents 100% won’t like it, which makes sense. I’m truly lost and don’t know what to do, I don’t have anyone to talk to about this.

I keep applying to jobs but only rejections, I haven’t even gotten an interview. I’m waiting on my heart test results (ECG etc), if something is wrong, guess I don’t have to worry, but if it isn’t, I don’t know what to do. I’m truly lost and sometimes I feel like something IS wrong, or maybe I hope it so I don’t have to deal with it. I don’t know what I feel or think, I just want these feelings to go away and less stress, what should I do? Will I just end up working myself to death before I even cross 26?

Hey, so I don’t really know who to go with this. I’m not rich, so I don’t know if I have the luxury to quit. I work in Canada for a decent company not making crazy money but something decent. I have 14k saved up, no car, live with my parents. I help them pay bills and other things which basically lead to ~1k in expenses. I invest and spend more here and there taking away almost my first pay cheque.

Saving only the second one. Recently I’ve been trying to invest more and trying other things so my savings have been even less. But recently my anxiety has been through the roof. I am getting tests done because I think something is wrong with my heart but still waiting on results. I keep getting sick, once one health problem goes away I get another one. I had an addiction to weed before which I don’t do anymore because of my health issues. It helped me a lot until it didn’t.

I don’t think I get paid enough to take on the stress I do and still get implied by others that I’m stupid. Struggling and always stumbling, expecting to handle problems much out of my scope and things that I haven’t really heard of other juniors tackling. Expected to get work done yet no OT pay, eventually things get tight and I have to OT anyway. I’m always thinking about my tasks outside of work, and at work I can’t focus at times cause I keep thinking I can’t figure it out. I take on tasks other seniors should be handling but with only 3 YEO my title is “Intermediate”. But all the stress seems to be really taking its toll on me.

I’ve even had nervous system issues and so many tests that say I have nothing but a vitamin D deficiency and the doctors say my muscles twitch like I’ve been working out 2-3 times a day (I don’t even do that much in a week cause of exhaustion).

This has been happening for 1.5 years now, and not only do I not feel like doing anything. All my side projects go to waste because I get sick, burn money, and then lose both. Hence my savings being so bad.

I want to quit, even as I write this my legs shaking and hearts beating to the point I want to call an ambulance. If I quit my parents 100% won’t like it, which makes sense. I’m truly lost and don’t know what to do, I don’t have anyone to talk to about this.

I keep applying to jobs but only rejections, I haven’t even gotten an interview. I’m waiting on my heart test results (ECG etc), if something is wrong, guess I don’t have to worry, but if it isn’t, I don’t know what to do. I’m truly lost and sometimes I feel like something IS wrong, or maybe I hope it so I don’t have to deal with it. I don’t know what I feel or think, I just want these feelings to go away and less stress, what should I do? Will I just end up working myself to death before I even cross 26?