I have a very hard time with the idea on going down on my girlfriend /u/non429584 Sex

Hi all, I’m a 21 year old biological male (trans MTF if that matters here idk) and I’m in a relationship with my 25 year old girlfriend (biological girl), and we’ve been dating for almost a year now.

For further context, I’m bisexual and my past partners have been men, my now girlfriend is the only girl I’ve been with.

Our sex life is just fine and we are still finding out our boundaries and standards when it comes to what is okay and what is not okay in bed. I have desires that she won’t do and she has desires that I won’t do, and we agreed that’s okay as long as we meet in the middle on everything else. One of the things I’ve shared that I have massive issue with is “eating her out” (if I’m using that phrase correctly).

I have no problem fingering her, and if it was possible, theoretically being inside her (due to a physical disability her vagina is too tight for insertion, I’ve come to accept this), and overall with the idea of her having a vagina, but it’s an absolute 10000% turn off when I see, smell, and especially taste it.

I know I’m bisexual and not just into men because I do find her very sexually appealing (along with other women as a whole) but the vagina has always been a turn-off for me when I actually see it, both with her in person and porn on the internet.

My main theory is that I do have autism and I struggle heavily with change, often repulsed by new ideas that drastically change things. All my life I’ve seen myself having a penis, and when I was old enough encountering it sexually through others, but my girlfriend is the first time I’ve probably experienced the other sex parts. When viewing porn I suppose I’ve naturally avoided the parts when they show the vagina on screen too.

Overall, my girlfriend has 100% accepted the fact that I won’t go down there as one of the things I’ve put my foot down on, but she has complained to me several times about it, and even accused me of only liking men because of my disinterest (along of me mentioning of fantasies where she is a male with a penis doing me), and that bugs me a little.

I want to give it more of a chance to kinda prove my worth, and of course provide my girlfriend with that bit of extra love, but I just can’t bring myself to commit to the bit. Any advice on how I can “get used to it?”

Hi all, I’m a 21 year old biological male (trans MTF if that matters here idk) and I’m in a relationship with my 25 year old girlfriend (biological girl), and we’ve been dating for almost a year now.

For further context, I’m bisexual and my past partners have been men, my now girlfriend is the only girl I’ve been with.

Our sex life is just fine and we are still finding out our boundaries and standards when it comes to what is okay and what is not okay in bed. I have desires that she won’t do and she has desires that I won’t do, and we agreed that’s okay as long as we meet in the middle on everything else. One of the things I’ve shared that I have massive issue with is “eating her out” (if I’m using that phrase correctly).

I have no problem fingering her, and if it was possible, theoretically being inside her (due to a physical disability her vagina is too tight for insertion, I’ve come to accept this), and overall with the idea of her having a vagina, but it’s an absolute 10000% turn off when I see, smell, and especially taste it.

I know I’m bisexual and not just into men because I do find her very sexually appealing (along with other women as a whole) but the vagina has always been a turn-off for me when I actually see it, both with her in person and porn on the internet.

My main theory is that I do have autism and I struggle heavily with change, often repulsed by new ideas that drastically change things. All my life I’ve seen myself having a penis, and when I was old enough encountering it sexually through others, but my girlfriend is the first time I’ve probably experienced the other sex parts. When viewing porn I suppose I’ve naturally avoided the parts when they show the vagina on screen too.

Overall, my girlfriend has 100% accepted the fact that I won’t go down there as one of the things I’ve put my foot down on, but she has complained to me several times about it, and even accused me of only liking men because of my disinterest (along of me mentioning of fantasies where she is a male with a penis doing me), and that bugs me a little.

I want to give it more of a chance to kinda prove my worth, and of course provide my girlfriend with that bit of extra love, but I just can’t bring myself to commit to the bit. Any advice on how I can “get used to it?”