Is my behaviour creepy, is it socially acceptable to sort of store fap material from the gymbros ? /u/MysteriousCheetah921 Sex

Am I a creep ?

Masturbation to porn is boring me and I can’t get a boyfriend because I’m socially awkward but masturbating to my IRLS gets me off so good.

I should mention that I’m F20, I workout a bunch so most of my time is spent at the gym. With men. Sexy muscular men. And I’m I heaven. I have a gym crush and he is so sexy, I try my best to focus but I can help but take a peek at him every now and again.

And I know the gym is like a forbidden place to try and meet people so I try my best not to bother him and stay out of his way but he just draws my attention and I catch myself looking at him.

The way his muscles flex, the small grunts, the dick bulge, the back and bi’s. just so much masculinity I want to drool. Plus dad bods fuckkkkkkkk. know I shouldn’t be looking.

I fantasise about him when I masturbate and have all sorts of yk depraved thoughts about him. As a major sub the gym is like a candy land because there’s a lot of sterotypically dominant masculine looking men around, doing manly stuff. Like it’s corny but it satisfies a lot of deep biological urges I guess because strong man = good provider or something like that. Just like put a baby in me sir lol. Plus a size difference kink and being picked up, it’s just a combination of several things I like mixed together in a super horny fantasy.

I feel so creepy and guilty. Because if the genders were reversed it would probably be an issue I’m guessing. I feel like a creep and I always have that sense of guilt when I finish. I just can’t help myself. My sex drive has just died lately and gymbros seem to be the only thing that spark it 😭😭😭 what do I do ?

Am I a creep ?

Masturbation to porn is boring me and I can’t get a boyfriend because I’m socially awkward but masturbating to my IRLS gets me off so good.

I should mention that I’m F20, I workout a bunch so most of my time is spent at the gym. With men. Sexy muscular men. And I’m I heaven. I have a gym crush and he is so sexy, I try my best to focus but I can help but take a peek at him every now and again.

And I know the gym is like a forbidden place to try and meet people so I try my best not to bother him and stay out of his way but he just draws my attention and I catch myself looking at him.

The way his muscles flex, the small grunts, the dick bulge, the back and bi’s. just so much masculinity I want to drool. Plus dad bods fuckkkkkkkk. know I shouldn’t be looking.

I fantasise about him when I masturbate and have all sorts of yk depraved thoughts about him. As a major sub the gym is like a candy land because there’s a lot of sterotypically dominant masculine looking men around, doing manly stuff. Like it’s corny but it satisfies a lot of deep biological urges I guess because strong man = good provider or something like that. Just like put a baby in me sir lol. Plus a size difference kink and being picked up, it’s just a combination of several things I like mixed together in a super horny fantasy.

I feel so creepy and guilty. Because if the genders were reversed it would probably be an issue I’m guessing. I feel like a creep and I always have that sense of guilt when I finish. I just can’t help myself. My sex drive has just died lately and gymbros seem to be the only thing that spark it 😭😭😭 what do I do ?