I’m terrified about eaten out /u/Desperate-Mud-86 Sex

Sorry for the TMI!!! I (18F), have been dating my boyfriend (18M) for the past 4 months (he’s my first boyfriend), and we have fooled around a handful of times (small stuff like bjs and fingering), however he is coming over in 2 weeks, and I know he wants to go down on me, but I’m torn. On one hand, I really want him to do it, as he’s has this amazing talent of making me finish really fast, however there are a few other problems I have. Firstly, my vagina is not the most pleasant looking, we are talking like roast beef. I absolutely hate it as one of my labia just comes really far out and ruins it. If it weren’t for that, it would be fine, but current it looks like a massacre. Secondly, I’m terrified it will taste bad, and it will make him gag or put him off me, that has become one of my worst fears so far. Lastly, I don’t like fully shaving as I get a ton of ingrown hairs, so I just do a really short trim, however, I was reading an earlier reddit posy where the guy hated his girlfriend having any hair as it was unattractive and gave him a rash when earing her out.

I’ve vaguely mentioned these fears to my boyfriend, and he’s reassured me and said its my body and my choice, and he will love me no matter what (I love him so much), but I’m still really scared that I will repulse him. I’ve also got a ton of insecurity issues, for example I’m a midsize girl, so I have a bit of a tummy and thick thighs, but again he reassures me he finds them hot but I just have a hard time loving myself.

Is there anyone out there experiencing the same things as I am? I don’t want to repulse him but I really like being intimate with him and he’s an absolute angel of a man, so I know he won’t judge but I’m just so scared and I hope to overcome this fear.

Thank you so much if you’ve read this and I’m sorry again for how much detail I had to give!

Sorry for the TMI!!! I (18F), have been dating my boyfriend (18M) for the past 4 months (he’s my first boyfriend), and we have fooled around a handful of times (small stuff like bjs and fingering), however he is coming over in 2 weeks, and I know he wants to go down on me, but I’m torn. On one hand, I really want him to do it, as he’s has this amazing talent of making me finish really fast, however there are a few other problems I have. Firstly, my vagina is not the most pleasant looking, we are talking like roast beef. I absolutely hate it as one of my labia just comes really far out and ruins it. If it weren’t for that, it would be fine, but current it looks like a massacre. Secondly, I’m terrified it will taste bad, and it will make him gag or put him off me, that has become one of my worst fears so far. Lastly, I don’t like fully shaving as I get a ton of ingrown hairs, so I just do a really short trim, however, I was reading an earlier reddit posy where the guy hated his girlfriend having any hair as it was unattractive and gave him a rash when earing her out.

I’ve vaguely mentioned these fears to my boyfriend, and he’s reassured me and said its my body and my choice, and he will love me no matter what (I love him so much), but I’m still really scared that I will repulse him. I’ve also got a ton of insecurity issues, for example I’m a midsize girl, so I have a bit of a tummy and thick thighs, but again he reassures me he finds them hot but I just have a hard time loving myself.

Is there anyone out there experiencing the same things as I am? I don’t want to repulse him but I really like being intimate with him and he’s an absolute angel of a man, so I know he won’t judge but I’m just so scared and I hope to overcome this fear.

Thank you so much if you’ve read this and I’m sorry again for how much detail I had to give!