Husband doesn’t want to go down on me /u/Odd-Positive-2016 Sex

We’ve been married 4 years. Me- F 24, Husband- M 27. He has never gone down on me. He says he will when he’s ready and I’ve been waiting patiently. But I think I’ve been waiting for so long and still not getting it. Whenever I ask, he says he isn’t ready yet. I’ve given him a blowjob a couple of times and when I say that he says “but that was with the condom on, I wouldn’t ask you to give me a blowjob without condom if that made you uncomfortable”. Well unfortunately it’s not like have an option of wearing a condom. And tbh if he wanted one without a condom on even if it made me uncomfortable, I would still give it. As much as I understand I shouldn’t make him do something he doesn’t like, it does hurt me. I mean at least if he tried it even once. If he tried and disliked I would have still been more understanding I think. But why is he not even trying? I was in the middle of giving him a handjob and in that high he said “tomorrow I’m gonna go down on you, get ready” and I got so excited and happy. And that was in his part sleep. After the session was over, I asked him did you mean that btw, and he said “it was in my sleep I don’t even know what I said” I just feel so hurt and pissed. I feel like he said it just to get me to give the handjob in full form and force. Why would he say something like this and not mean it? Also, is there anything at all that I’m not aware of, that could be used to make it easier for a guy to go down on you? Like to avoid the ick feeling for them?

I’m just so upset but also I’m trying not to push him. I obviously love him and wanna be with him forever but this is starting to bother me and I’m sure it’s going to affect our sex life too.

We’ve been married 4 years. Me- F 24, Husband- M 27. He has never gone down on me. He says he will when he’s ready and I’ve been waiting patiently. But I think I’ve been waiting for so long and still not getting it. Whenever I ask, he says he isn’t ready yet. I’ve given him a blowjob a couple of times and when I say that he says “but that was with the condom on, I wouldn’t ask you to give me a blowjob without condom if that made you uncomfortable”. Well unfortunately it’s not like have an option of wearing a condom. And tbh if he wanted one without a condom on even if it made me uncomfortable, I would still give it. As much as I understand I shouldn’t make him do something he doesn’t like, it does hurt me. I mean at least if he tried it even once. If he tried and disliked I would have still been more understanding I think. But why is he not even trying? I was in the middle of giving him a handjob and in that high he said “tomorrow I’m gonna go down on you, get ready” and I got so excited and happy. And that was in his part sleep. After the session was over, I asked him did you mean that btw, and he said “it was in my sleep I don’t even know what I said” I just feel so hurt and pissed. I feel like he said it just to get me to give the handjob in full form and force. Why would he say something like this and not mean it? Also, is there anything at all that I’m not aware of, that could be used to make it easier for a guy to go down on you? Like to avoid the ick feeling for them?

I’m just so upset but also I’m trying not to push him. I obviously love him and wanna be with him forever but this is starting to bother me and I’m sure it’s going to affect our sex life too.