Got laid off but relieved… /u/sYfPxiq2sDlIltLc5ux1 CSCQ protests reddit

I’m adding to the “I lost my job” type posts I’ve been seeing frequently on this sub over the past year-ish. Yup, as the title says, I lost my job. I have 4 years of experience. Just became another statistic in the evergrowing tech layoffs. And here’s the thing: I should be sad. I should be depressed, anxious, all those good things. But I only feel ONE thing right now and that’s relief.

You see, I hated my job. I didn’t like the people I worked with (nothing wrong with them personally. My personality and theirs just don’t mesh well and that’s fine. That’s life.). I didn’t like how my manager never really… managed. I didn’t like how he didn’t have the decency to hold back from texting me (for non-emergencies) until the next day. I didn’t like how I was increasingly made to be a code monkey or was guilt-tripped for not delivering things quickly enough or with the quality my manager wanted whenever I was rushed. Deep down. I wanted to quit, but I was too scared to. But I’m finally free. During the layoff call, I had to try my best to hide my smile and my elated tone. Had I lost all semblance of professionalism, I probably would’ve shouted, “THANK YOU! YOU DON’T KNOW HOW LONG I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS CALL drops call“. In retrospect, as I write this post, I feel like I’m coming off like some crazy dude, and maybe I am. Maybe forcing myself to work at a company and for a manager I dislike for so long messed with the screws in my brain.

For now, I have some savings and have set some plans to survive well for the next 3-4 months. I’m going to take a well-deserved rest first. Get the screws back in place. And then dive into getting things back to how they were. But better. Better boundaries. Better relationships. Better self-control.

With all of that said, however… How fucked am I? hahaha

I’m adding to the “I lost my job” type posts I’ve been seeing frequently on this sub over the past year-ish. Yup, as the title says, I lost my job. I have 4 years of experience. Just became another statistic in the evergrowing tech layoffs. And here’s the thing: I should be sad. I should be depressed, anxious, all those good things. But I only feel ONE thing right now and that’s relief.

You see, I hated my job. I didn’t like the people I worked with (nothing wrong with them personally. My personality and theirs just don’t mesh well and that’s fine. That’s life.). I didn’t like how my manager never really… managed. I didn’t like how he didn’t have the decency to hold back from texting me (for non-emergencies) until the next day. I didn’t like how I was increasingly made to be a code monkey or was guilt-tripped for not delivering things quickly enough or with the quality my manager wanted whenever I was rushed. Deep down. I wanted to quit, but I was too scared to. But I’m finally free. During the layoff call, I had to try my best to hide my smile and my elated tone. Had I lost all semblance of professionalism, I probably would’ve shouted, “THANK YOU! YOU DON’T KNOW HOW LONG I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS CALL drops call“. In retrospect, as I write this post, I feel like I’m coming off like some crazy dude, and maybe I am. Maybe forcing myself to work at a company and for a manager I dislike for so long messed with the screws in my brain.

For now, I have some savings and have set some plans to survive well for the next 3-4 months. I’m going to take a well-deserved rest first. Get the screws back in place. And then dive into getting things back to how they were. But better. Better boundaries. Better relationships. Better self-control.

With all of that said, however… How fucked am I? hahaha