Anal gone wrong, help! /u/oliviarometoin Sex

So my boyfriend (45M) and I (27F) have anal about once or twice a month. He really likes it and while it’s not something that gives me mind blowing orgasms, it really turns me on to see him enjoying it so I like it a lot. We have a very sexual relationship, we enjoy trying new things and having fun. We are really into sending sexy pics and sexting while we’re not together, I feel like he put me on a pedestal and thinks I can do no wrong. The thing is that yesterday we were having anal sex and while I did an enema and all, poop got into his penis. I was mortified, he handled it cool, just hopped into the shower and told me to join him. He changed the sheets and then we had sex, but I couldn’t stop crying so he just stopped and started comforting me. He told me he was putting his penis in my ass, where poop comes from, and that it just means that I’m healthy and my body is working like it should. He kept reassuring me it was fine and he didn’t really care, like it was no big deal. He spent 3 hours just taking to me, trying to get my mind off it, but I still can’t stop thinking about it. His son (16M) then called and he had to leave to pick him up, but still tried to make small talk with me in the car while driving me home. He’s been texting me non stop since, telling me how he misses me and he kept sending pics of him with his son, of the food he was cooking, etc. He’s been great about it, but I can’t stop crying and I feel mortified, to the point of thinking about ending it. I’m worried he won’t think I’m as sexy as before or that he won’t be tuned on any longer or won’t want to try anal again. He didn’t bring sex up in any of the conversations we’d had since, while we did so often before. Men who had this happen before, did it affect the way you saw your SO after? Thank you

So my boyfriend (45M) and I (27F) have anal about once or twice a month. He really likes it and while it’s not something that gives me mind blowing orgasms, it really turns me on to see him enjoying it so I like it a lot. We have a very sexual relationship, we enjoy trying new things and having fun. We are really into sending sexy pics and sexting while we’re not together, I feel like he put me on a pedestal and thinks I can do no wrong. The thing is that yesterday we were having anal sex and while I did an enema and all, poop got into his penis. I was mortified, he handled it cool, just hopped into the shower and told me to join him. He changed the sheets and then we had sex, but I couldn’t stop crying so he just stopped and started comforting me. He told me he was putting his penis in my ass, where poop comes from, and that it just means that I’m healthy and my body is working like it should. He kept reassuring me it was fine and he didn’t really care, like it was no big deal. He spent 3 hours just taking to me, trying to get my mind off it, but I still can’t stop thinking about it. His son (16M) then called and he had to leave to pick him up, but still tried to make small talk with me in the car while driving me home. He’s been texting me non stop since, telling me how he misses me and he kept sending pics of him with his son, of the food he was cooking, etc. He’s been great about it, but I can’t stop crying and I feel mortified, to the point of thinking about ending it. I’m worried he won’t think I’m as sexy as before or that he won’t be tuned on any longer or won’t want to try anal again. He didn’t bring sex up in any of the conversations we’d had since, while we did so often before. Men who had this happen before, did it affect the way you saw your SO after? Thank you