Does he (42m) now respect me (29f) less after rough dominant sex? /u/AscentAtLast Sex

So, I’ve been with my partner now for 4 months and he’s been the most amazing partner I’ve ever had (bearing in mind I know we’re still in the honeymoon phase). He’s attentive, emotionally intelligent etc. Dare I say that I’M the more dominant one in our day-to-day lives and he’s the more submissive partner. He’ll do anything for me and he goes out of his way to do things (big and small) for me.

2 nights ago I was giving him a blowjob and he says (hesitantly) that he’d love it if we tried deepthroating and that he wanted to try being a bit more dominant in bed. He was making it clear there was no pressure and that he’d love me the same if we never did that. I’d always wanted to try that so we did. I could tell he absolutely loved it right from the beginning. Deepthroating led into forceful throatfucking (he asked for my consent to get rougher), hair grabbing, then he was pinning me down and omg I’d never felt so dominated in my entire life. At the end he came all over my face/in my mouth while calling me his “good girl”.

I loved the sex and he loved the sex but I could hardly look at him the next day. I felt like he would definitely respect me less after that. Before him I’d been almost entirely vanilla, my ex-fiancé and I were devout Catholics and… I guess I felt slightly embarrassed.

Do dominant people (in bed) lose respect for their partners OUTSIDE of the bedroom? Will this change us? He hasn’t treated me any differently, but that night is at the back of my mind.

So, I’ve been with my partner now for 4 months and he’s been the most amazing partner I’ve ever had (bearing in mind I know we’re still in the honeymoon phase). He’s attentive, emotionally intelligent etc. Dare I say that I’M the more dominant one in our day-to-day lives and he’s the more submissive partner. He’ll do anything for me and he goes out of his way to do things (big and small) for me.

2 nights ago I was giving him a blowjob and he says (hesitantly) that he’d love it if we tried deepthroating and that he wanted to try being a bit more dominant in bed. He was making it clear there was no pressure and that he’d love me the same if we never did that. I’d always wanted to try that so we did. I could tell he absolutely loved it right from the beginning. Deepthroating led into forceful throatfucking (he asked for my consent to get rougher), hair grabbing, then he was pinning me down and omg I’d never felt so dominated in my entire life. At the end he came all over my face/in my mouth while calling me his “good girl”.

I loved the sex and he loved the sex but I could hardly look at him the next day. I felt like he would definitely respect me less after that. Before him I’d been almost entirely vanilla, my ex-fiancé and I were devout Catholics and… I guess I felt slightly embarrassed.

Do dominant people (in bed) lose respect for their partners OUTSIDE of the bedroom? Will this change us? He hasn’t treated me any differently, but that night is at the back of my mind.