My (23m) girlfriend (21f) has discovered my asshole, which has been revelatory, confusing and emasculating for me. /u/ThrowRA-backdoor Sex

My (23m) girlfriend (21f) is awesome. She’s the coolest and funniest person in the world and an absolute demon in the sack.

Her big kink is cock worship, which means I’m regularly treated to the most delectable, attentive and full-service marathon blowjobs this side of the Nile.

About a month ago she was doing her thing down there when out of nowhere she pushed my knees up against my chest and started rimming me out. I went to stop her because it seemed like a pretty fucking gross thing to do, but I was immediately entranced by the best physical sensation of my life.

Or at least I thought it was the best, until a few minutes later when she went back to working my cock but inserted a finger to give me my first ever prostate massage. I had no idea my body was capable of pleasure so delicious.

Since then, my asshole’s pretty much been the protagonist of our sex life. She’s been loving this switch in the power dynamic, especially since we started pegging a couple of weeks ago.

It’s been great, but now I’m really struggling with my masculinity and self-image. I’ve always been a dom-top (I’m 6’2″ 215lbs and athletic), and now suddenly I’m getting routinely railed by a 5’4″ blonde chick with a strap on, and I’m loving it.

I’ve noticed that as my sexual horizons expand, my confidence outside the bedroom has fallen pretty sharply. I feel like less of a man, and I know a lot of that is just lifelong social conditioning, but it is what it is. I struggle to feel like a “protector” to her anymore. I’ve been hitting the gym extra hard, and going extra rough with my gf when it’s my turn to deliver (which she seems to be enjoying a lot, at least) to try and compensate.

My “manliness” was one of the main things that my gf has said attracted her to me in the first place, and I live in constant fear that she’ll snap out of it mid-peg, see what she’s created, and lose all interest in me as a man.

More recently I’ve also been having an even more worrying intrusive thought: the silicon strap on has been great, bit I’m increasingly curious about what the real thing feels like. That’s not a thread that I plan to pull on any time soon, but it’s confusing me tremendously.

It’s like I don’t know exactly who I am anymore and it’s scaring me. Is this normal? Does it go away?

My (23m) girlfriend (21f) is awesome. She’s the coolest and funniest person in the world and an absolute demon in the sack.

Her big kink is cock worship, which means I’m regularly treated to the most delectable, attentive and full-service marathon blowjobs this side of the Nile.

About a month ago she was doing her thing down there when out of nowhere she pushed my knees up against my chest and started rimming me out. I went to stop her because it seemed like a pretty fucking gross thing to do, but I was immediately entranced by the best physical sensation of my life.

Or at least I thought it was the best, until a few minutes later when she went back to working my cock but inserted a finger to give me my first ever prostate massage. I had no idea my body was capable of pleasure so delicious.

Since then, my asshole’s pretty much been the protagonist of our sex life. She’s been loving this switch in the power dynamic, especially since we started pegging a couple of weeks ago.

It’s been great, but now I’m really struggling with my masculinity and self-image. I’ve always been a dom-top (I’m 6’2″ 215lbs and athletic), and now suddenly I’m getting routinely railed by a 5’4″ blonde chick with a strap on, and I’m loving it.

I’ve noticed that as my sexual horizons expand, my confidence outside the bedroom has fallen pretty sharply. I feel like less of a man, and I know a lot of that is just lifelong social conditioning, but it is what it is. I struggle to feel like a “protector” to her anymore. I’ve been hitting the gym extra hard, and going extra rough with my gf when it’s my turn to deliver (which she seems to be enjoying a lot, at least) to try and compensate.

My “manliness” was one of the main things that my gf has said attracted her to me in the first place, and I live in constant fear that she’ll snap out of it mid-peg, see what she’s created, and lose all interest in me as a man.

More recently I’ve also been having an even more worrying intrusive thought: the silicon strap on has been great, bit I’m increasingly curious about what the real thing feels like. That’s not a thread that I plan to pull on any time soon, but it’s confusing me tremendously.

It’s like I don’t know exactly who I am anymore and it’s scaring me. Is this normal? Does it go away?