Any of you deal with ptsd from workplace bullies? /u/SailingSamurai CSCQ protests reddit

So I had an internship last year and while I did my best to play along and get along with everyone.

I honestly sucked. And this was a small tech company in the valley so apparently everyone’s supposed to be a rockstar etc etc

I genuinely didn’t even mind getting bad performance reviews because frankly I just knew – but I needed the money so I stuck around.

But they made sure I bled for that money with toxic mind games. It’s been a year later and I’m still replaying the tapes and I think I might be depressed. I’m really only catching up now how two faced the whole situation was.

I ask myself if I did anything to deserve it: – I coulda not been dead weight – I think they were hoping for someone more extroverted / social then what they actually got but I just interview well. This was a real “drink with your manager” kinda group.

But goddamn how does one recover from this? Have any of you gotten out of it?

I think I might have rejection sensitive dysphoria or something cause all the usual “just don’t care and move on” just ain’t working. I’m fairly high in neuroticism so that’s not doing me any favours either.

So I had an internship last year and while I did my best to play along and get along with everyone.

I honestly sucked. And this was a small tech company in the valley so apparently everyone’s supposed to be a rockstar etc etc

I genuinely didn’t even mind getting bad performance reviews because frankly I just knew – but I needed the money so I stuck around.

But they made sure I bled for that money with toxic mind games. It’s been a year later and I’m still replaying the tapes and I think I might be depressed. I’m really only catching up now how two faced the whole situation was.

I ask myself if I did anything to deserve it: – I coulda not been dead weight – I think they were hoping for someone more extroverted / social then what they actually got but I just interview well. This was a real “drink with your manager” kinda group.

But goddamn how does one recover from this? Have any of you gotten out of it?

I think I might have rejection sensitive dysphoria or something cause all the usual “just don’t care and move on” just ain’t working. I’m fairly high in neuroticism so that’s not doing me any favours either.