Boyfriend too insecure to have sex with me after going through my journal/diary /u/PuzzleheadedBee2935 Sex

So I won’t get into this, but, before I was with my boyfriend in the summer of 2023 I went to a festival with my friends and ended up being able to go backstage at one point and meet one of my fav rappers, long story short he invited me and my friends to party with him and I ended up going back to his hotel and we hooked up. It was a very memorable night as this artist happened to be very notable in fact we all had to sign NDA’s for even being at the hotel. Anyways, since this was such a surreal moment I detailed all of it in my journal which brings us to now.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for about 6 months. The other day he randomly started asking me about music, specifically this artists music. He was asking me if I liked his songs, what my favourites were, why I liked him, etc, and it was obvious he was trying to hint at something more specific. I asked him why he was asking all these questions and he told me it’s cause he heard I hooked up with this artist. Now there’s no possible way he would know that unless he read my journal so I asked him and after lying about it for a bit he eventually admitted that yes he did go through my journal full of my personal thoughts and experiences.

So, now I am upset with him for betraying my trust as he knows that I am not okay with that. But he is upset with me because I had sex with this rapper who he happens to also really like and he’s saying that I should’ve told him ahead of time did time about this? It’s none of his business and I believe shouldn’t be a concern what I have done with others before even knowing you, I can’t control my past actions so why should I feel guilty for this? He’s saying he’s upset that he can’t listen to this artist without thinking about him having sex with me and making me feel like I should feel bad but like maybe he shouldn’t have snooped through my personal belongings? Anyways, he’s been very anxious to have sex with me ever since knowing this information and I have a very high sex drive so this has been a frustrating situation as I don’t even think there needs to be a problem. Just wanting to see others opinions.

So I won’t get into this, but, before I was with my boyfriend in the summer of 2023 I went to a festival with my friends and ended up being able to go backstage at one point and meet one of my fav rappers, long story short he invited me and my friends to party with him and I ended up going back to his hotel and we hooked up. It was a very memorable night as this artist happened to be very notable in fact we all had to sign NDA’s for even being at the hotel. Anyways, since this was such a surreal moment I detailed all of it in my journal which brings us to now.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for about 6 months. The other day he randomly started asking me about music, specifically this artists music. He was asking me if I liked his songs, what my favourites were, why I liked him, etc, and it was obvious he was trying to hint at something more specific. I asked him why he was asking all these questions and he told me it’s cause he heard I hooked up with this artist. Now there’s no possible way he would know that unless he read my journal so I asked him and after lying about it for a bit he eventually admitted that yes he did go through my journal full of my personal thoughts and experiences.

So, now I am upset with him for betraying my trust as he knows that I am not okay with that. But he is upset with me because I had sex with this rapper who he happens to also really like and he’s saying that I should’ve told him ahead of time did time about this? It’s none of his business and I believe shouldn’t be a concern what I have done with others before even knowing you, I can’t control my past actions so why should I feel guilty for this? He’s saying he’s upset that he can’t listen to this artist without thinking about him having sex with me and making me feel like I should feel bad but like maybe he shouldn’t have snooped through my personal belongings? Anyways, he’s been very anxious to have sex with me ever since knowing this information and I have a very high sex drive so this has been a frustrating situation as I don’t even think there needs to be a problem. Just wanting to see others opinions.