How stop faking orgasms and have a good sex life with me boyfriend? /u/Lady_froga Sex

i (21F) have been with my boyfriend (23M) for a little over a year. I lost my virginity to him one month into our relationship, and since then we have regular sex, usually every weekend or time that we ser each other.

At the beginning I said that I could never get there and that sometimes I didn’t feel anything in terms of pleasure. This caused him to get frustrated with himself and start talking bad about himself and what a terrible boyfriend he was. But it got to the point where he said he didn’t know what he was doing wrong because none of his exes had problems with orgasms and they often had multiple orgasms. Convinced that the problem was with me, I started faking orgasms so i not make him feel bad and not feel stressed during sex because whenever I said that I wouldn’t have an orgasm the next time we had sex he would get super focused and anxious about it, really making me uncomfortable with myself for not being able to give it to him. Even though I thought the problem wasn’t 100% me, as I’ve always managed to have orgasms alone.

I have masturbate since i was a teenager and always us able to have orgasms using my hands or a pillow(LOL)

It’s been 1 year since I’ve ever had an orgasm and things are getting worst. Most of the time i initiate, he feels bad initiate sex and i do most of the foreplay. I rarely receive oral sex and other foreplay is quick and aggressive, when it happens, it’s normal. I just warm up to him jack hammer me hahahaha

It’s starting to be a problem because i starting to have a hard time faking it beucase i no longer felling pleasure. so i end up faking it for sex end quicker and not beucase i just can orgasm. At this point I dont know if there’s a problem with size (he’s below average), beucase a read that a lot of woman dont have trouble felling presure with small penies. I really want to feel good having sex with him and maybe have a orgams one day. But he always get defesive when i ask something new or for change up thinks. usually he get kinda upset about it and asks why i want him to be another guy besides himself.

side note: i know what im doing is basic lying to him, but i was, kinda still, really scary about hurting his feelinf and self-esteem.

so i want any advice about how have pleasure with my boyfriend and starting stop to fake orgasms.

i (21F) have been with my boyfriend (23M) for a little over a year. I lost my virginity to him one month into our relationship, and since then we have regular sex, usually every weekend or time that we ser each other.

At the beginning I said that I could never get there and that sometimes I didn’t feel anything in terms of pleasure. This caused him to get frustrated with himself and start talking bad about himself and what a terrible boyfriend he was. But it got to the point where he said he didn’t know what he was doing wrong because none of his exes had problems with orgasms and they often had multiple orgasms. Convinced that the problem was with me, I started faking orgasms so i not make him feel bad and not feel stressed during sex because whenever I said that I wouldn’t have an orgasm the next time we had sex he would get super focused and anxious about it, really making me uncomfortable with myself for not being able to give it to him. Even though I thought the problem wasn’t 100% me, as I’ve always managed to have orgasms alone.

I have masturbate since i was a teenager and always us able to have orgasms using my hands or a pillow(LOL)

It’s been 1 year since I’ve ever had an orgasm and things are getting worst. Most of the time i initiate, he feels bad initiate sex and i do most of the foreplay. I rarely receive oral sex and other foreplay is quick and aggressive, when it happens, it’s normal. I just warm up to him jack hammer me hahahaha

It’s starting to be a problem because i starting to have a hard time faking it beucase i no longer felling pleasure. so i end up faking it for sex end quicker and not beucase i just can orgasm. At this point I dont know if there’s a problem with size (he’s below average), beucase a read that a lot of woman dont have trouble felling presure with small penies. I really want to feel good having sex with him and maybe have a orgams one day. But he always get defesive when i ask something new or for change up thinks. usually he get kinda upset about it and asks why i want him to be another guy besides himself.

side note: i know what im doing is basic lying to him, but i was, kinda still, really scary about hurting his feelinf and self-esteem.

so i want any advice about how have pleasure with my boyfriend and starting stop to fake orgasms.