Should someone who sexually abused me be counted as part of my ‘body count’? /u/AdApprehensive1827 Sex

I’m in a new relationship and struggling with my past sexual abuse. I feel weird and disgusted, but also comfortable with my partner in a way I never have been before. But I feel like he’s also ashamed to have intercourse with me now, and even to give me pleasure. Ever since I told him about my sexual abuse, things have felt different and distant. Although he tells me it’s okay, I still feel like it’s not.

I’m in a new relationship and struggling with my past sexual abuse. I feel weird and disgusted, but also comfortable with my partner in a way I never have been before. But I feel like he’s also ashamed to have intercourse with me now, and even to give me pleasure. Ever since I told him about my sexual abuse, things have felt different and distant. Although he tells me it’s okay, I still feel like it’s not.