I feel like I use sex to get liked /u/spacy90 Sex

I’m not sure if it’s a self-conscious thing, or if my depression has a part to play in it all, but a lot of times when I meet someone, like on a dating app or something, we MIGHT talk like a week, maybe two, and then have sex. My mind tells me I really like them and that if I have sex we might have a great connection. However, that is almost ALWAYS never the case. I end up giving a part of myself away that I can’t get back and end up getting ghosted or tossed aside as just some random again. I know I can’t be mad at them or place blame and that I am a grown woman and can make my own choices, I just get so upset at myself honestly. I feel like it’s a real problem too because I genuinely want someone to love and be happy with. It just seems impossible these days.

I’m not sure if it’s a self-conscious thing, or if my depression has a part to play in it all, but a lot of times when I meet someone, like on a dating app or something, we MIGHT talk like a week, maybe two, and then have sex. My mind tells me I really like them and that if I have sex we might have a great connection. However, that is almost ALWAYS never the case. I end up giving a part of myself away that I can’t get back and end up getting ghosted or tossed aside as just some random again. I know I can’t be mad at them or place blame and that I am a grown woman and can make my own choices, I just get so upset at myself honestly. I feel like it’s a real problem too because I genuinely want someone to love and be happy with. It just seems impossible these days.