GOING THROUGH DIFFICULT TIME /u/Fun_Fudge7228 Sex

I never had sex before. I had no problem with arousal before until I decided I wanted sex. Mentally, I wanted sex in the moment. But I couldn’t get physically aroused at all. No part of my body touched was getting me aroused. Apparently my v*Gina was ready because it got wet. So my partner thought I was ready. But, no! I felt horrible pain even though he never penetrated. We tried few times, and each time I couldn’t go through with it. This is causing me so much stress! Am I doomed to never experience sex in my life? 😢 I want it. I fantasize about it. But my body doesn’t cooperate.
Checked hormones and estrogen is low. Have been on HRT but I saw no improvements. I have diabetes diagnosis but it is controlled.
Anyone ever experienced this? It is strange but in the past I could get aroused just by reading about sexual encounter. Why have I suddenly lost it?😢 Is it subconscious fears and blockages? How do I heal?

I never had sex before. I had no problem with arousal before until I decided I wanted sex. Mentally, I wanted sex in the moment. But I couldn’t get physically aroused at all. No part of my body touched was getting me aroused. Apparently my v*Gina was ready because it got wet. So my partner thought I was ready. But, no! I felt horrible pain even though he never penetrated. We tried few times, and each time I couldn’t go through with it. This is causing me so much stress! Am I doomed to never experience sex in my life? 😢 I want it. I fantasize about it. But my body doesn’t cooperate.
Checked hormones and estrogen is low. Have been on HRT but I saw no improvements. I have diabetes diagnosis but it is controlled.
Anyone ever experienced this? It is strange but in the past I could get aroused just by reading about sexual encounter. Why have I suddenly lost it?😢 Is it subconscious fears and blockages? How do I heal?