I kinda wanna see him again, but I’m scared it’s just out of desperation /u/throwaway_mix222 Sex

Hey guys i made this account just for this post… so I F20 am a virgin and recently joined a group where people chat, sext, hook up, or just meet. I started talking to a guy in mid-november, though we had two silent periods. I had seen his body but not his face, while he had seen my body (from my profile pic) and a video of my face. He complimented me on both multiple times. After a while, we agreed to meet, deciding beforehand that we’d do oral but no sex for the first time. He picked me up (yes, I know all about stranger danger). On the drive, there were a lot of awkward silences – he wasn’t putting much effort into the conversation. I had to ask questions to keep things going. He also seemed tired (he mentioned he’d considered canceling). We parked and talked for a bit, but there were more silences. He seemed like he was falling asleep, so we decided to break the ice and started making out. He asked for permission to touch me, and after some time, he placed my hand on his crotch and told me I got him very aroused. Eventually, he asked if I wanted to taste it, and I said yes. Here’s where it got weird: as he started to undress and almost took it out, he suddenly picked up his phone and replied to an Instagram message. (He had also done this while driving and again before dropping me off.) After that, I started the BJ. He guided me a little but didn’t complain, and he finished in less than 5 minutes. Then he asked if he could return the favor. He started, and it felt okay, but I think I was too nervous and not vocal enough about what I liked. He eventually stopped (it felt like less than 5 minutes) , and we agreed I wasn’t going to orgasm that night. Before driving me back, he went on Instagram again. Before I got out of the car, we made out again (which I didn’t expect), and that was it. He hasn’t texted me since – this was two days ago (tuesday). Now, I’m left with a few questions: Will I hear from him again, or was this just a one-time thing? – before the meeting we talked about having sex some other time.. Was my BJ actually good, or is he just a quick cummer? If he doesn’t reach out, does it mean he didn’t like how I looked in real life but went through with the evening because he didn’t know how to reject me? Is his boner even a reliable indicator of whether he was into me or not?

For context, I don’t feel any emotional attachment but enjoyed the attention and excitement. Still, I feel confused about how everything went (especially the texting – I don’t think he was texting some other girl tho). And I want to say that he did seem like a different person in real life compared to when we were texting (thats on me for meeting people online). At the same time, I want to do this again, but better. However, he wasn’t actually my type, which makes me overthink the situation.

Hey guys i made this account just for this post… so I F20 am a virgin and recently joined a group where people chat, sext, hook up, or just meet. I started talking to a guy in mid-november, though we had two silent periods. I had seen his body but not his face, while he had seen my body (from my profile pic) and a video of my face. He complimented me on both multiple times. After a while, we agreed to meet, deciding beforehand that we’d do oral but no sex for the first time. He picked me up (yes, I know all about stranger danger). On the drive, there were a lot of awkward silences – he wasn’t putting much effort into the conversation. I had to ask questions to keep things going. He also seemed tired (he mentioned he’d considered canceling). We parked and talked for a bit, but there were more silences. He seemed like he was falling asleep, so we decided to break the ice and started making out. He asked for permission to touch me, and after some time, he placed my hand on his crotch and told me I got him very aroused. Eventually, he asked if I wanted to taste it, and I said yes. Here’s where it got weird: as he started to undress and almost took it out, he suddenly picked up his phone and replied to an Instagram message. (He had also done this while driving and again before dropping me off.) After that, I started the BJ. He guided me a little but didn’t complain, and he finished in less than 5 minutes. Then he asked if he could return the favor. He started, and it felt okay, but I think I was too nervous and not vocal enough about what I liked. He eventually stopped (it felt like less than 5 minutes) , and we agreed I wasn’t going to orgasm that night. Before driving me back, he went on Instagram again. Before I got out of the car, we made out again (which I didn’t expect), and that was it. He hasn’t texted me since – this was two days ago (tuesday). Now, I’m left with a few questions: Will I hear from him again, or was this just a one-time thing? – before the meeting we talked about having sex some other time.. Was my BJ actually good, or is he just a quick cummer? If he doesn’t reach out, does it mean he didn’t like how I looked in real life but went through with the evening because he didn’t know how to reject me? Is his boner even a reliable indicator of whether he was into me or not?

For context, I don’t feel any emotional attachment but enjoyed the attention and excitement. Still, I feel confused about how everything went (especially the texting – I don’t think he was texting some other girl tho). And I want to say that he did seem like a different person in real life compared to when we were texting (thats on me for meeting people online). At the same time, I want to do this again, but better. However, he wasn’t actually my type, which makes me overthink the situation.