I had my first sexual experience and I don’t know how I feel /u/fruit-mongerrr Sex

I’m 19f and my bf 19m have been taking things further. I’m a complete mega virgin, like he was the first person to touch my boobs (that was underwhelming). He’s only had a few encounters and isn’t a virgin. I’m really into him and anytime we made out before I would get SOAKING wet and be super into it. The first time we took things further we just dry humped and it was amazing, I didn’t even finish but I still really enjoyed it. He offered to touch me but I wasn’t ready for that. But since the other night it’s like all the tension has disappeared.

I saw and touched his weiner for the first time and I completely freaked out. I feel I ruined the mood bc I just stared at it. He’s super sweet and talked me through it and let me sit there in shock with his pecker in my hand for a while. We were able to laugh things off which is great. I know things will get better when I’m less nervous but idk why I feel so weird about the whole thing. I took my underwear off, which I was most nervous for bc I’m insecure about how m kitty looks. I told him that and he told me I was beautiful and all that. We did some less dry humping and more wet humping bc the hand job wasn’t doing it for him which felt really good but every time we are doing something it will feel good for me and I’ll be turned then suddenly I feel nothing and I’m back to square 1.

He fingered me which was… unsatisfactory. He asked me to show him what to do so I had him play with my clit which didn’t do much for me so I just had him finger me while I flicked my bean. I finished but it was like the saddest orgasm of my life and I had to lock tf in to finish. I plan on showing him what I like more bc he some how missed my g spot entirely, it’s almost like he knew where it was just so he could avoid it.

I know my expectations are crushing my reality rn but I hate that I feel this way. I don’t know if I just need to pull back and go slower bc I was anxious or what I’m even feeling rn. I mostly just feel anxious, a little disappointed and mostly just sad that I feel like I lost the spark. Before the second encounter I was head over heels with him and there was so much sexual tension. I’m terrified things are going to change. Has anyone felt this way before, what did you do? Will things get better?

I’m 19f and my bf 19m have been taking things further. I’m a complete mega virgin, like he was the first person to touch my boobs (that was underwhelming). He’s only had a few encounters and isn’t a virgin. I’m really into him and anytime we made out before I would get SOAKING wet and be super into it. The first time we took things further we just dry humped and it was amazing, I didn’t even finish but I still really enjoyed it. He offered to touch me but I wasn’t ready for that. But since the other night it’s like all the tension has disappeared.

I saw and touched his weiner for the first time and I completely freaked out. I feel I ruined the mood bc I just stared at it. He’s super sweet and talked me through it and let me sit there in shock with his pecker in my hand for a while. We were able to laugh things off which is great. I know things will get better when I’m less nervous but idk why I feel so weird about the whole thing. I took my underwear off, which I was most nervous for bc I’m insecure about how m kitty looks. I told him that and he told me I was beautiful and all that. We did some less dry humping and more wet humping bc the hand job wasn’t doing it for him which felt really good but every time we are doing something it will feel good for me and I’ll be turned then suddenly I feel nothing and I’m back to square 1.

He fingered me which was… unsatisfactory. He asked me to show him what to do so I had him play with my clit which didn’t do much for me so I just had him finger me while I flicked my bean. I finished but it was like the saddest orgasm of my life and I had to lock tf in to finish. I plan on showing him what I like more bc he some how missed my g spot entirely, it’s almost like he knew where it was just so he could avoid it.

I know my expectations are crushing my reality rn but I hate that I feel this way. I don’t know if I just need to pull back and go slower bc I was anxious or what I’m even feeling rn. I mostly just feel anxious, a little disappointed and mostly just sad that I feel like I lost the spark. Before the second encounter I was head over heels with him and there was so much sexual tension. I’m terrified things are going to change. Has anyone felt this way before, what did you do? Will things get better?