Boyfriend doesn’t want to eat me out /u/thrownawayaccount101 Sex

My boyfriend and I aren’t sexually compatible. I’ve struggled with intimacy greatly and haven’t been able to seem to make us compatible as he is fairly well endowed. I am a small girl with a small frame and his size has been painful for me. Penetration is extremely painful for me.

So we’ve experimented to see what feels good for the both of us. I enjoy giving him oral and I enjoy pleasuring him in any way I can apart from the obvious.

A few months ago, we had a conversation about what we could both do better. I suggested he give me more oral as he has never offered to before and I bit the bullet and asked him if he would.

He agreed although he said he wanted me to be freshly showered before hand, even though I have never applied this to him; he’s clean, I’m clean, I never asked him to be freshly showered as we both have good hygiene and take care of our bodies. I told him I didn’t find that fair as I have given him oral when he’s straight out of a long shift at work. We agreed that what he had said was silly, but yet still no oral for me came.

Flash forward to today, and I bring it up again and he’s eager, the kind of eager I had never witnessed from him before and it made me feel so seen and loved. It made me feel like he cared about finding a way to pleasure me while we work through our incompatibility. I was so excited.

He took one or two licks and made a noise. Not a good noise. So, naturally, I jumped away from him and demanded to know what was wrong. He said nothing, but I wasn’t convinced and my ego was already shattered. I was confused and asked him to please just tell me what was wrong.

He said there was a bad taste. I told him that that couldn’t be possible because I showered just before hand, I never use anything scented down there, and that my diet aligns well. I’ve also been seeing a gynaecologist quite frequently so I know that there isn’t anything off about my hygiene down there.

I asked him if he had given oral to any girls before me. What was so wrong with me?

He admitted that he doesn’t like doing it as it weirds him out. I asked him why he didn’t just say that, why blame me for having a ‘bad taste’, why make me feel insecure and embarrassed instead of just owning up to that fact?

I feel humiliated and I don’t want to be intimate with him again. In the past few months, I have done everything and more to help him finish, I’ve done everything he’s ever asked of me sexually, even if it wasn’t something I particularly wanted to do; but I just felt so guilty that he couldn’t penetrate me that I just did it.

I have given him oral in cars, oral while drunk, oral first thing in the morning, oral in the middle of the night. Anything to get him off and help him finish.

I’ve never finished. Because nothing he is doing for me helps. I have a problem where penetration won’t work without me being in agony.

The one thing I have is that he gives me oral and that would help me find satisfaction in our unconventional sex life. And now it feels like I’m never going to be able to get off because within thirty seconds of him finally giving me some sort of relief ended with him making a noise that just shattered me.

I’ll never forget yanking the blankets over myself as he told me I tasted badly, I felt so much shame. I know I enjoy giving him oral, but now I’m second guessing ever doing it again because I spitefully want him to feel as unwanted and embarrassed as I feel now.

I have given him oral when he hadn’t showered since the morning, when we first wake up, and he wouldn’t even do it for me when I was freshly showered. I know I don’t taste bad. There is no reason why I shouldn’t have a normal taste.

I think his problem is that he doesn’t have experience eating a girl out and the general, neutral, taste is throwing him off. I just don’t know. I just don’t know how to combat this. He can’t penetrate me, and I’m just so tired of feeling defective in front of him.

My boyfriend and I aren’t sexually compatible. I’ve struggled with intimacy greatly and haven’t been able to seem to make us compatible as he is fairly well endowed. I am a small girl with a small frame and his size has been painful for me. Penetration is extremely painful for me.

So we’ve experimented to see what feels good for the both of us. I enjoy giving him oral and I enjoy pleasuring him in any way I can apart from the obvious.

A few months ago, we had a conversation about what we could both do better. I suggested he give me more oral as he has never offered to before and I bit the bullet and asked him if he would.

He agreed although he said he wanted me to be freshly showered before hand, even though I have never applied this to him; he’s clean, I’m clean, I never asked him to be freshly showered as we both have good hygiene and take care of our bodies. I told him I didn’t find that fair as I have given him oral when he’s straight out of a long shift at work. We agreed that what he had said was silly, but yet still no oral for me came.

Flash forward to today, and I bring it up again and he’s eager, the kind of eager I had never witnessed from him before and it made me feel so seen and loved. It made me feel like he cared about finding a way to pleasure me while we work through our incompatibility. I was so excited.

He took one or two licks and made a noise. Not a good noise. So, naturally, I jumped away from him and demanded to know what was wrong. He said nothing, but I wasn’t convinced and my ego was already shattered. I was confused and asked him to please just tell me what was wrong.

He said there was a bad taste. I told him that that couldn’t be possible because I showered just before hand, I never use anything scented down there, and that my diet aligns well. I’ve also been seeing a gynaecologist quite frequently so I know that there isn’t anything off about my hygiene down there.

I asked him if he had given oral to any girls before me. What was so wrong with me?

He admitted that he doesn’t like doing it as it weirds him out. I asked him why he didn’t just say that, why blame me for having a ‘bad taste’, why make me feel insecure and embarrassed instead of just owning up to that fact?

I feel humiliated and I don’t want to be intimate with him again. In the past few months, I have done everything and more to help him finish, I’ve done everything he’s ever asked of me sexually, even if it wasn’t something I particularly wanted to do; but I just felt so guilty that he couldn’t penetrate me that I just did it.

I have given him oral in cars, oral while drunk, oral first thing in the morning, oral in the middle of the night. Anything to get him off and help him finish.

I’ve never finished. Because nothing he is doing for me helps. I have a problem where penetration won’t work without me being in agony.

The one thing I have is that he gives me oral and that would help me find satisfaction in our unconventional sex life. And now it feels like I’m never going to be able to get off because within thirty seconds of him finally giving me some sort of relief ended with him making a noise that just shattered me.

I’ll never forget yanking the blankets over myself as he told me I tasted badly, I felt so much shame. I know I enjoy giving him oral, but now I’m second guessing ever doing it again because I spitefully want him to feel as unwanted and embarrassed as I feel now.

I have given him oral when he hadn’t showered since the morning, when we first wake up, and he wouldn’t even do it for me when I was freshly showered. I know I don’t taste bad. There is no reason why I shouldn’t have a normal taste.

I think his problem is that he doesn’t have experience eating a girl out and the general, neutral, taste is throwing him off. I just don’t know. I just don’t know how to combat this. He can’t penetrate me, and I’m just so tired of feeling defective in front of him.