I’m literally going insane /u/Affectionate-Pie686 Sex

I love my boyfriend so much romantically (we’ve been together for half a year now) like I couldn’t do anything sexually with him because he’s asexual and I’m asexual, well at least I think I am because I don’t think or do anything sexual to my boyfriend obviously but when I’m alone at my house I masturbate

Not to him or anyone at all I just do it and I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I wonder if it’s just me being used to my ex and the trauma they gave me because they would pressure me to do a lot of sexual stuff and I would try and obviously it doesn’t work because I don’t feel anything like that and I’m uncomfortable.

but when I’m alone I don’t like how anything feels mentally but my body seems to like it in some way?? and I’m just like what the fuck.

I don’t know man this is driving me crazy and making me overthink about it

I love my boyfriend so much romantically (we’ve been together for half a year now) like I couldn’t do anything sexually with him because he’s asexual and I’m asexual, well at least I think I am because I don’t think or do anything sexual to my boyfriend obviously but when I’m alone at my house I masturbate

Not to him or anyone at all I just do it and I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I wonder if it’s just me being used to my ex and the trauma they gave me because they would pressure me to do a lot of sexual stuff and I would try and obviously it doesn’t work because I don’t feel anything like that and I’m uncomfortable.

but when I’m alone I don’t like how anything feels mentally but my body seems to like it in some way?? and I’m just like what the fuck.

I don’t know man this is driving me crazy and making me overthink about it