Can my fetish be trauma response? /u/MetalAsleep952 Sex

Okay so I (23F) had been possibly sexually assaulted since I was young. I am still not sure about things surrounding it, nor I really want to face the possibility.

Anyways a few years ago something during masturbation clicked and I started to be drawn to being more innocent and or “inexperienced”, “childish” during sex.

It deeply disturbed me and it still does. However it is the only thing that can make me properly cum. I know there are things like “Age play” but that also disturbs me and looking into it seems like it is also not recommended and straight up frowned upon.

I am afraid that there is something deeply wrong with me.

Okay so I (23F) had been possibly sexually assaulted since I was young. I am still not sure about things surrounding it, nor I really want to face the possibility.

Anyways a few years ago something during masturbation clicked and I started to be drawn to being more innocent and or “inexperienced”, “childish” during sex.

It deeply disturbed me and it still does. However it is the only thing that can make me properly cum. I know there are things like “Age play” but that also disturbs me and looking into it seems like it is also not recommended and straight up frowned upon.

I am afraid that there is something deeply wrong with me.