I’m a straight male, been married 10 years and love my wife. We have sex 1x/week or so but she has much lower libido than me. She is pretty vanilla but indulges some of my kinks from time to time like pegging me and clamping my nipples.I know she’s never really “in to it” but does it for me which I appreciate. But, I’m super freaky and pervy by myself. Im constantly horny and have to masturbate at least twice a day. Also pretty sure I’m on the autosexual spectrum. I film myself during solo sessions and watch later to get off/in the mood again. I’m admittably vein. I’m very fit, spray tan, wax, get botox, meticulously watch what I eat to stay lean and work out two hours a day. I find myself really hot, love my body and watching me do freaky things myself. For example, I have a fuck machine I use all the time. Various toys, clamps, restraints, harnesses etc. Getting pounded by my machine with a huge dildo, while holding onto a spreader bar and ripping my nipples with clamps attached to my gag is the best way to cum. I actually prefer this to PIV sex. Now… I’ve recently discovered that I also like to wear slutty lingerie while I play and it’s escalated a bit. I have a wig, fake boobs, a fabric mask that matches my skin tone and a fufu clip (look it up). I only do this alone and no one knows but me. I think I look hot as a girl, and get off super hard when I gender bend during solo play. But, sometimes feel like a pervert and a weirdo in the post nut clarity phase. I have no desire to be a girl, I am a dude and think women are the sexiest ever. I don’t want to go out in public or anything like that. It’s just sexual. At the same time it would be really really fun to do these things with a partner. But in researching this fetish, it seems to gross out and repulse pretty much every women. So that just makes me feel even more conflicted and can’t imagine talking to my wife about it. She has a pretty good idea about the other stuff I described ,but isn’t interested in any of it. She’s found some of my BDSM harnesses and cock ring underwear etc. Didn’t say anything, just noticed she put it in my underwear drawer. But the sissy thing I’m pretty sure would not go over well. I’ve always felt like kind of a freak, but the last couple years I’ve gotten more toys, gear, into filming myself and now the sissy thing. Am I getting mentally sick or what?
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r/sex I’m a straight male, been married 10 years and love my wife. We have sex 1x/week or so but she has much lower libido than me. She is pretty vanilla but indulges some of my kinks from time to time like pegging me and clamping my nipples.I know she’s never really “in to it” but does it for me which I appreciate. But, I’m super freaky and pervy by myself. Im constantly horny and have to masturbate at least twice a day. Also pretty sure I’m on the autosexual spectrum. I film myself during solo sessions and watch later to get off/in the mood again. I’m admittably vein. I’m very fit, spray tan, wax, get botox, meticulously watch what I eat to stay lean and work out two hours a day. I find myself really hot, love my body and watching me do freaky things myself. For example, I have a fuck machine I use all the time. Various toys, clamps, restraints, harnesses etc. Getting pounded by my machine with a huge dildo, while holding onto a spreader bar and ripping my nipples with clamps attached to my gag is the best way to cum. I actually prefer this to PIV sex. Now… I’ve recently discovered that I also like to wear slutty lingerie while I play and it’s escalated a bit. I have a wig, fake boobs, a fabric mask that matches my skin tone and a fufu clip (look it up). I only do this alone and no one knows but me. I think I look hot as a girl, and get off super hard when I gender bend during solo play. But, sometimes feel like a pervert and a weirdo in the post nut clarity phase. I have no desire to be a girl, I am a dude and think women are the sexiest ever. I don’t want to go out in public or anything like that. It’s just sexual. At the same time it would be really really fun to do these things with a partner. But in researching this fetish, it seems to gross out and repulse pretty much every women. So that just makes me feel even more conflicted and can’t imagine talking to my wife about it. She has a pretty good idea about the other stuff I described ,but isn’t interested in any of it. She’s found some of my BDSM harnesses and cock ring underwear etc. Didn’t say anything, just noticed she put it in my underwear drawer. But the sissy thing I’m pretty sure would not go over well. I’ve always felt like kind of a freak, but the last couple years I’ve gotten more toys, gear, into filming myself and now the sissy thing. Am I getting mentally sick or what? submitted by /u/Abject_Eye_2553 [link] [comments]
I’m a straight male, been married 10 years and love my wife. We have sex 1x/week or so but she has much lower libido than me. She is pretty vanilla but indulges some of my kinks from time to time like pegging me and clamping my nipples.I know she’s never really “in to it” but does it for me which I appreciate. But, I’m super freaky and pervy by myself. Im constantly horny and have to masturbate at least twice a day. Also pretty sure I’m on the autosexual spectrum. I film myself during solo sessions and watch later to get off/in the mood again. I’m admittably vein. I’m very fit, spray tan, wax, get botox, meticulously watch what I eat to stay lean and work out two hours a day. I find myself really hot, love my body and watching me do freaky things myself. For example, I have a fuck machine I use all the time. Various toys, clamps, restraints, harnesses etc. Getting pounded by my machine with a huge dildo, while holding onto a spreader bar and ripping my nipples with clamps attached to my gag is the best way to cum. I actually prefer this to PIV sex. Now… I’ve recently discovered that I also like to wear slutty lingerie while I play and it’s escalated a bit. I have a wig, fake boobs, a fabric mask that matches my skin tone and a fufu clip (look it up). I only do this alone and no one knows but me. I think I look hot as a girl, and get off super hard when I gender bend during solo play. But, sometimes feel like a pervert and a weirdo in the post nut clarity phase. I have no desire to be a girl, I am a dude and think women are the sexiest ever. I don’t want to go out in public or anything like that. It’s just sexual. At the same time it would be really really fun to do these things with a partner. But in researching this fetish, it seems to gross out and repulse pretty much every women. So that just makes me feel even more conflicted and can’t imagine talking to my wife about it. She has a pretty good idea about the other stuff I described ,but isn’t interested in any of it. She’s found some of my BDSM harnesses and cock ring underwear etc. Didn’t say anything, just noticed she put it in my underwear drawer. But the sissy thing I’m pretty sure would not go over well. I’ve always felt like kind of a freak, but the last couple years I’ve gotten more toys, gear, into filming myself and now the sissy thing. Am I getting mentally sick or what?
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