Discovering myself at age 29 /u/SecondChance111 Sex

My ex husband had an affair and left me for another woman whilst I was pregnant. About 6 months before he left me I started to venture into making sexual more exciting. My ex husband didn’t like kissing, no foreplay apart from a short fingering session before he did the same 3 positions. He was never interested in anything else and throughout the years I tried to suggest things to which he said that was a turn off. I grew up in a religious household that made me feel ashamed of my sexuality, then I got with my ex husband who also made me feel ashamed. I finally got the courage to have sex with someone else and he was very kinky and hot. It was a massive turn on. I feel like I have always had this kinky side I have buried down and I want to explore it more. Because my ex wouldn’t let me do much, I feel I am not experienced at all. I never even orgasmed in sex with him because he lasted 5 minutes then he would roll over and fall asleep. The problem is I still feel like there’s something wrong with me as when I masturbate it takes me forever to orgasm and a lot of the time I can’t reach one, even with a vibrator. It is obviously the stress and trauma that is blocking me from letting go. I never orgasmed with the new guy which made me feel broken even though it felt really good. I had to stop talking to him as I was catching feelings and he wasn’t ready for a commitment. I don’t know if I should be having sex with different people and hope that I can get pass this block or I should be focusing on discovering my own body more

My ex husband had an affair and left me for another woman whilst I was pregnant. About 6 months before he left me I started to venture into making sexual more exciting. My ex husband didn’t like kissing, no foreplay apart from a short fingering session before he did the same 3 positions. He was never interested in anything else and throughout the years I tried to suggest things to which he said that was a turn off. I grew up in a religious household that made me feel ashamed of my sexuality, then I got with my ex husband who also made me feel ashamed. I finally got the courage to have sex with someone else and he was very kinky and hot. It was a massive turn on. I feel like I have always had this kinky side I have buried down and I want to explore it more. Because my ex wouldn’t let me do much, I feel I am not experienced at all. I never even orgasmed in sex with him because he lasted 5 minutes then he would roll over and fall asleep. The problem is I still feel like there’s something wrong with me as when I masturbate it takes me forever to orgasm and a lot of the time I can’t reach one, even with a vibrator. It is obviously the stress and trauma that is blocking me from letting go. I never orgasmed with the new guy which made me feel broken even though it felt really good. I had to stop talking to him as I was catching feelings and he wasn’t ready for a commitment. I don’t know if I should be having sex with different people and hope that I can get pass this block or I should be focusing on discovering my own body more