My masturbation fantasies disturb me, but I can’t get into it without them. Any suggestions? /u/thatslifeiguess Sex

Let me preface this post by saying that I know my fantasies are some kind of reaction to things that have happened in my life that I have deep issues with. I most likely need therapy but I live in a country where mental health isn’t as developed as it should be and it’s insanely expensive to see one of the few licensed experts.

My fantasies all center around stuff like non-con, incest, underage (I’m not underage, but I imagine myself in this role with older men), unbalanced powerdynamics etc. I never fantasize about real people but I make up fictional ones in my mind and I always imagine myself in the role of the one being used.

I know a lot of these fantasies are normal and something many enjoy in roleplay and stuff. What I don’t like is how disturbed I get after that I get off on these fantasies, but imagining a healthy sexual dynamic does nothing for me.

All help and advice is welcome! Thank you!

Let me preface this post by saying that I know my fantasies are some kind of reaction to things that have happened in my life that I have deep issues with. I most likely need therapy but I live in a country where mental health isn’t as developed as it should be and it’s insanely expensive to see one of the few licensed experts.

My fantasies all center around stuff like non-con, incest, underage (I’m not underage, but I imagine myself in this role with older men), unbalanced powerdynamics etc. I never fantasize about real people but I make up fictional ones in my mind and I always imagine myself in the role of the one being used.

I know a lot of these fantasies are normal and something many enjoy in roleplay and stuff. What I don’t like is how disturbed I get after that I get off on these fantasies, but imagining a healthy sexual dynamic does nothing for me.

All help and advice is welcome! Thank you!