My family keep making me worthless and ashamed for masturbating how do I stop doing it? /u/Softttmango Sex

18F Muslim hijabi even though I was I born and raised in the UK my parents still have the mentality that they live back home. I know I’m not perfect but I do genuinely try to be the best person I can be.

I already hate myself and the only time I ever felt any sort of relief was while watching porn and masturbating. I know it’s not the healthiest outlet but it gives me some time to actually feel some sort of happiness or pleasure. I admit I got a problem with it and the porn is constantly getting more filthy and hardcore.

I felt like shit on Christmas just seeing everyone happy with family,friends and partners just reminded me how lonely I am. So I went to pleasure myself and I got caught by my dad. He saw what I was watching and called me a disgusting whore we had a huge argument. My family hasn’t even looked at me in face since. They just ignore me like I don’t exist even though I felt like I was invisible before at least they talked to me when they needed something.

I don’t know what to do honestly I just pray every night that I don’t wake up so I don’t have to feel this sad and depressed again. I feel so disgusting and ashamed of this habit and how it’s become my only outlet to feel better.

I really want to stop this habit so I don’t ever have to feel this dirty again but I’m constantly feeling the need to play with my self. Is there anyway to just shut down the feeling with medication or something. I know it this might sound stupid but thank you in advance for any advice.

18F Muslim hijabi even though I was I born and raised in the UK my parents still have the mentality that they live back home. I know I’m not perfect but I do genuinely try to be the best person I can be.

I already hate myself and the only time I ever felt any sort of relief was while watching porn and masturbating. I know it’s not the healthiest outlet but it gives me some time to actually feel some sort of happiness or pleasure. I admit I got a problem with it and the porn is constantly getting more filthy and hardcore.

I felt like shit on Christmas just seeing everyone happy with family,friends and partners just reminded me how lonely I am. So I went to pleasure myself and I got caught by my dad. He saw what I was watching and called me a disgusting whore we had a huge argument. My family hasn’t even looked at me in face since. They just ignore me like I don’t exist even though I felt like I was invisible before at least they talked to me when they needed something.

I don’t know what to do honestly I just pray every night that I don’t wake up so I don’t have to feel this sad and depressed again. I feel so disgusting and ashamed of this habit and how it’s become my only outlet to feel better.

I really want to stop this habit so I don’t ever have to feel this dirty again but I’m constantly feeling the need to play with my self. Is there anyway to just shut down the feeling with medication or something. I know it this might sound stupid but thank you in advance for any advice.