Not able to have sex because of my father? /u/Big-Philosopher1538 Sex

Hey guys, didn’t know which sub to refer to so here we are. I (17m) found out my Father is cheating on my mother a week ago. They were together for 30 years, married for 10. He disappeared without a trace on the 15th, not answering calls, even having blocked me and my mother. Slowly but surely more and more got revealed. My mother found call logs with an unknown number, consisting of daily calls since November.

Long story short, ever since I found out I am extremely emotional and I keep derealising/fading out of reality? To have a bit of background info, I have bpd, and me and my partner just welcomed our son (5m) so maybe that influences the whole emotional part, but ever since I found out I can’t let my partner near me. I do find myself getting turned on and having sexual thoughts, but I can’t get physical. Is there anything other than therapy? Should I just wait it out?

Thank you guys 🙂

Hey guys, didn’t know which sub to refer to so here we are. I (17m) found out my Father is cheating on my mother a week ago. They were together for 30 years, married for 10. He disappeared without a trace on the 15th, not answering calls, even having blocked me and my mother. Slowly but surely more and more got revealed. My mother found call logs with an unknown number, consisting of daily calls since November.

Long story short, ever since I found out I am extremely emotional and I keep derealising/fading out of reality? To have a bit of background info, I have bpd, and me and my partner just welcomed our son (5m) so maybe that influences the whole emotional part, but ever since I found out I can’t let my partner near me. I do find myself getting turned on and having sexual thoughts, but I can’t get physical. Is there anything other than therapy? Should I just wait it out?

Thank you guys 🙂