I feel the urge and desire to masturbate, but have started hating it. Why this might be happening ? /u/CoachAccomplished107 Sex

I do feel horny and get erections and feel the intense desire to mastubate, but lately I am stopping myself from doing it. I fell grossed by the thought of watching women being violated in this way and I get sad when I see myself masturbating, in a tiny washroom since years.

Can someone who has felt in a similar way, help me deal with these feelings ?

I do feel horny and get erections and feel the intense desire to mastubate, but lately I am stopping myself from doing it. I fell grossed by the thought of watching women being violated in this way and I get sad when I see myself masturbating, in a tiny washroom since years.

Can someone who has felt in a similar way, help me deal with these feelings ?