I 18F and worried about losing my bf 19M over a bj /u/BnnyBubbles Sex

So my boyfriend and I have been together for a little over 7 months now, everything is great. But during sex I just don’t like giving head.

For context I’m autistic, I don’t like the texture or taste and it is just unappealing to me as gagging is just icky for me. I’ve told my boyfriend multiple times that there’s no expectation for him to give me head and I’ve asked him a few times whether me not wanting to give head bothers him which he replies no to.

That’s all well and good except every time we do anything he asks if I want to, and trust me I’ve tried but I feel like throwing up immediately. I physically can’t. The asking doesn’t bother me so much as he respects my answer. The other night when we were having sex he put his thumb in my mouth and had me suck it etc. basically doing what I would do if I was giving head.

After sex he asked me what was the difference between sucking on his finger vs giving a bj. I explained that the texture and the size was the main reason (he’s not small). I think it really bothers him and he’s been kinda ignoring me since. I love him and don’t want to lose him but I genuinely can’t give head. When he’s put fingers in my mouth before I’ve pulled my head or his hand away because I gagged, and I’ve tried to explain to him how much I hate it.

Am I in the wrong here?

So my boyfriend and I have been together for a little over 7 months now, everything is great. But during sex I just don’t like giving head.

For context I’m autistic, I don’t like the texture or taste and it is just unappealing to me as gagging is just icky for me. I’ve told my boyfriend multiple times that there’s no expectation for him to give me head and I’ve asked him a few times whether me not wanting to give head bothers him which he replies no to.

That’s all well and good except every time we do anything he asks if I want to, and trust me I’ve tried but I feel like throwing up immediately. I physically can’t. The asking doesn’t bother me so much as he respects my answer. The other night when we were having sex he put his thumb in my mouth and had me suck it etc. basically doing what I would do if I was giving head.

After sex he asked me what was the difference between sucking on his finger vs giving a bj. I explained that the texture and the size was the main reason (he’s not small). I think it really bothers him and he’s been kinda ignoring me since. I love him and don’t want to lose him but I genuinely can’t give head. When he’s put fingers in my mouth before I’ve pulled my head or his hand away because I gagged, and I’ve tried to explain to him how much I hate it.

Am I in the wrong here?