I feel sad about what happened… /u/loudmind249 Sex

I had unprotected sex 3 weeks ago and I feel really ashamed of it. I’m autistic and have really bad anxiety so it kind of went through my head more thinking of performance rather than a condom. Hadn’t had sex in a long time barely have had any sexual partners and was always extremely safe about it. The time after it took a lot of courage to tell this guy I won’t have sex without a condom and it’s important to me to have one. And so we didn’t and he said he would respect that. A couple times meeting after I got really drunk and I seemed to want sex with him but he fucked me without a condom, two times. I have bad amnesia when drunk but I had a lot to drink and probably was way too out of it to think of a condom. Im pretty sure he was more sober than I was but this whole situation makes me feel really bad because I had a serious conversation about it with him when I was sober. I just needed to vent a bit I guess, I wish I had more of a voice…

I had unprotected sex 3 weeks ago and I feel really ashamed of it. I’m autistic and have really bad anxiety so it kind of went through my head more thinking of performance rather than a condom. Hadn’t had sex in a long time barely have had any sexual partners and was always extremely safe about it. The time after it took a lot of courage to tell this guy I won’t have sex without a condom and it’s important to me to have one. And so we didn’t and he said he would respect that. A couple times meeting after I got really drunk and I seemed to want sex with him but he fucked me without a condom, two times. I have bad amnesia when drunk but I had a lot to drink and probably was way too out of it to think of a condom. Im pretty sure he was more sober than I was but this whole situation makes me feel really bad because I had a serious conversation about it with him when I was sober. I just needed to vent a bit I guess, I wish I had more of a voice…