My bf made me throw away my vibrator /u/Icy-Cantaloupe8209 Sex

For context me (f19) and my bf (m19) have been dating for a year and a couple months. When we have sex im not able to finish, when i masturbate without a vibrator i cant finish. I literally need that thing to have an orgasm. He doesn’t know that i fake my orgasms during sex unfortunately i think i just do it to protect his feelings.. dont get me wrong hes AMAZING i literally just CANT finish.. even during oral sex. So one day he went through my room when he came over and found my wand vibrator and he cried and made me throw it away.. not sure if i should buy another one or not i feel like an asshole but i literally cant finish without one. Any advice?

For context me (f19) and my bf (m19) have been dating for a year and a couple months. When we have sex im not able to finish, when i masturbate without a vibrator i cant finish. I literally need that thing to have an orgasm. He doesn’t know that i fake my orgasms during sex unfortunately i think i just do it to protect his feelings.. dont get me wrong hes AMAZING i literally just CANT finish.. even during oral sex. So one day he went through my room when he came over and found my wand vibrator and he cried and made me throw it away.. not sure if i should buy another one or not i feel like an asshole but i literally cant finish without one. Any advice?