Have you ever felt no one has truly liked you, your whole life? /u/pwa09 No such thing as stupid questions

I’m in my 30s and it seems like I’ve been doing a lot of finding myself and trying to accomplish my goals. I’ve started a few new jobs over the past 4 years trying to find what exactly i want to do for my career long term. I’ve had this realization that 1) I’ve lost a lot of good friends that i thought were gonna stick around 2) most of the ethnic groups i live around and work with are different than me and im the minority everywhere i go, so its increased feelings of loneliness, and 3) I don’t think I’ve ever had one genuine friend that i could actually call a best friend, because something always happened and we fell off 4) for some reason, i just always feel like people pretend to like me and don’t truly want to be around me.

Could be the social anxiety i have, but I can’t help these feelings. Has anyone ever felt this way before?

I’m in my 30s and it seems like I’ve been doing a lot of finding myself and trying to accomplish my goals. I’ve started a few new jobs over the past 4 years trying to find what exactly i want to do for my career long term. I’ve had this realization that 1) I’ve lost a lot of good friends that i thought were gonna stick around 2) most of the ethnic groups i live around and work with are different than me and im the minority everywhere i go, so its increased feelings of loneliness, and 3) I don’t think I’ve ever had one genuine friend that i could actually call a best friend, because something always happened and we fell off 4) for some reason, i just always feel like people pretend to like me and don’t truly want to be around me.

Could be the social anxiety i have, but I can’t help these feelings. Has anyone ever felt this way before?