I’m too anxious to have sex with my crush /u/dievumiskas Sex

I’m 30m and there is a coworker at my work (24f) who is my crush. Last year we began to talk, and this year (unexpectedly) our relationship turned in a very romantic direction as I learned that it’s mutual. We are dating now and each date is more and more sexual. By now I know that she is eager to have sex with me. But it’s so unexpected that something that just recently was in my unrealistic fantasies may actually come true in the nearest time and I’m freaked out. And here’s why: on the recent date (we were sitting at KFC after walking in a park) I masturbated her through her pantyhose, told her of the fantasies I’ve had with her, what I want to do with her, kissed her etc. But I did not have an erection. This is one of the hottest moments of my life and I don’t remember having an erection. First I shrugged it off but now I’m freaked out.

For the record, last time I had sex was 10 years ago. I’ve also been masturbating daily since I was 12 or so, sometimes several times a day. Maybe my diagnosed OCD has something to do with it. I often masturbate even if I’m not hard and not really aroused.

What should I do? I don’t want to embarrass myself and I don’t want to jeopardize our relationship by failing at the moment of truth. This moment of truth may come very soon and I’m freaked out. I actually think I love her (2nd time in my life) and my dick’s (lack of) reaction contradicted to what was happening on our recent date.

I will definitely try to not to masturbate next days (wish me luck as I may succumb to my impulses easily).

But in case of sex, what can you guys advice? Maybe I should take some pills on THAT day? Or should I take some sedatives? Or what? I’m afraid advising me to “relax”, “not overthink” etc may not work with me. What should I do?

I’m 30m and there is a coworker at my work (24f) who is my crush. Last year we began to talk, and this year (unexpectedly) our relationship turned in a very romantic direction as I learned that it’s mutual. We are dating now and each date is more and more sexual. By now I know that she is eager to have sex with me. But it’s so unexpected that something that just recently was in my unrealistic fantasies may actually come true in the nearest time and I’m freaked out. And here’s why: on the recent date (we were sitting at KFC after walking in a park) I masturbated her through her pantyhose, told her of the fantasies I’ve had with her, what I want to do with her, kissed her etc. But I did not have an erection. This is one of the hottest moments of my life and I don’t remember having an erection. First I shrugged it off but now I’m freaked out.

For the record, last time I had sex was 10 years ago. I’ve also been masturbating daily since I was 12 or so, sometimes several times a day. Maybe my diagnosed OCD has something to do with it. I often masturbate even if I’m not hard and not really aroused.

What should I do? I don’t want to embarrass myself and I don’t want to jeopardize our relationship by failing at the moment of truth. This moment of truth may come very soon and I’m freaked out. I actually think I love her (2nd time in my life) and my dick’s (lack of) reaction contradicted to what was happening on our recent date.

I will definitely try to not to masturbate next days (wish me luck as I may succumb to my impulses easily).

But in case of sex, what can you guys advice? Maybe I should take some pills on THAT day? Or should I take some sedatives? Or what? I’m afraid advising me to “relax”, “not overthink” etc may not work with me. What should I do?