Felt guilty after seeing an escort /u/youarewrongaboutmeyo Sex

It was a clear night with a waning moon in the early to mid night hours.I was out at a bar by myself and was getting over a bad breakup from an ex. She had dumped me and the depression took over so after ordering food I added some alcoholic drinks to my tab and began taking 4-5 shots.after 15 mins I started to feel the buzz from the booze.not too long after the music starts sinking in and some attractive woman approaches me and starts to rub my chest and console me.i told her about my bad breakup and she listened to me. She told me she was a working girl and she charges for her time. She invited me over to her hotel room she was staying at for the night. She left me her number and I texted her number she gave me and i was able to verify she wasn’t law enforcement of any kind. I shortly arrived outside her hotel room with the payment in the envelope and anxiously and drunkenly counting the money reassuring it’s the exact amount she agreed on.Before this I never seen escorts or never paid any woman for sexual favors of any kind so this was my first time. She opened the door with nothing but lingerie and panties and she looked way sexier than she did in the bar. She lured me in her motel room and locked the door and I set the money on the table. I sat down nervously waiting for her to finish counting the money and secure it in a safe place where I didn’t see.she sat next to me and spoke to me in a soft voice holding my arm with her bare body. Something just felt off. I felt somewhat guilty about paying some random woman for temporary pleasure even though she said it was fine.she started to console me while tears slowly water my eyes n flow to my face.l told her i just didn’t want to have sex yet and apologized repeatedly and she still wanted to be intimate. She wiped my tears away and grabbed my arm and pulled towards her breasts.after that she pulled out a condom and put it on me.she told me to lay down and she climbed on top of me and slowly put it in. The pleasure from the intercourse made me squirm even more. Within a minute or two I was finished I felt more empty than I did. I just sat there lost as can be while she cleaned herself up.she wanted to cuddle up and continue to be intimate but all I thought about was leaving out of pure guilt. I told her I just couldn’t do this and left her room.

It was a clear night with a waning moon in the early to mid night hours.I was out at a bar by myself and was getting over a bad breakup from an ex. She had dumped me and the depression took over so after ordering food I added some alcoholic drinks to my tab and began taking 4-5 shots.after 15 mins I started to feel the buzz from the booze.not too long after the music starts sinking in and some attractive woman approaches me and starts to rub my chest and console me.i told her about my bad breakup and she listened to me. She told me she was a working girl and she charges for her time. She invited me over to her hotel room she was staying at for the night. She left me her number and I texted her number she gave me and i was able to verify she wasn’t law enforcement of any kind. I shortly arrived outside her hotel room with the payment in the envelope and anxiously and drunkenly counting the money reassuring it’s the exact amount she agreed on.Before this I never seen escorts or never paid any woman for sexual favors of any kind so this was my first time. She opened the door with nothing but lingerie and panties and she looked way sexier than she did in the bar. She lured me in her motel room and locked the door and I set the money on the table. I sat down nervously waiting for her to finish counting the money and secure it in a safe place where I didn’t see.she sat next to me and spoke to me in a soft voice holding my arm with her bare body. Something just felt off. I felt somewhat guilty about paying some random woman for temporary pleasure even though she said it was fine.she started to console me while tears slowly water my eyes n flow to my face.l told her i just didn’t want to have sex yet and apologized repeatedly and she still wanted to be intimate. She wiped my tears away and grabbed my arm and pulled towards her breasts.after that she pulled out a condom and put it on me.she told me to lay down and she climbed on top of me and slowly put it in. The pleasure from the intercourse made me squirm even more. Within a minute or two I was finished I felt more empty than I did. I just sat there lost as can be while she cleaned herself up.she wanted to cuddle up and continue to be intimate but all I thought about was leaving out of pure guilt. I told her I just couldn’t do this and left her room.