how to process good sex/intimacy ? /u/RoutineAccording9741 Sex

So basically I’m wondering if anyone has any say or advice on how to process this. Basically I was celibate for 3 years (I say it was for no reason but it was because I knew I had been taken advantage of countless times and hurt extremely badly but couldnt admit it to myself cuz I thought I deserved it and I actually thought all men would do that to me because of my looks and especially eyes- I have those fuck me eyes but thats what I wanted) and I’ve been involved with THE most caring and respectful daddy dom IN THE WORLD. He has shown me things I NEVER thought I would ever feel or expirience in my life. I have a very tumultuous past and it leaves me feeling dirty and unwanted – however through his gentle reminders and painstakingly, mind numbing , life-altering orgasms I find my self debating life and not knowing how to process this. It’s the most electrifying, riveting and exhilarating thing. From the sweet musky smell of him after work to the furious, fierce and passionate look in his eyes lately. They way he validates and cares for me is undeniably the most intriguing and galvanizing thing I’ve ever experienced. Is there such thing as too good to be true ? I want to find a way to work through these feelings and thoughts without saying something I’m afraid he may not be ready to hear – even though I know he knows. He just keeps getting better and better and giving me more and more attention , respect and orgasms (the kind where you’ve cum already like 10 times in under 10 minutes then he gives you even more until I’m basically a puddle of cum and tears crushed between his giant beast sized arms that are incredibly strong and terrifying but undeniably soft and gentle. I also dont know how to show or say my appreciation, how can I show I’m thankful and appreciative of the gifts he has given me?????? I cant….. I dont know what to do. All I can do is cry when he leaves cuz I’m just so thankful and happy!!! Also is saying I want your cock in my ass some what equivalent to I luff you and everything you do to me, cuz if so maybe I’ll go with that to start….although I am wayyy to tight and his cocks been getting bigger everything I see him I swear . 🤣🤣🤣😅🤦‍♀️🧐🧐🧐🥴🤫🙊🙊🙊🙈🙈🙉🙉🙉

So basically I’m wondering if anyone has any say or advice on how to process this. Basically I was celibate for 3 years (I say it was for no reason but it was because I knew I had been taken advantage of countless times and hurt extremely badly but couldnt admit it to myself cuz I thought I deserved it and I actually thought all men would do that to me because of my looks and especially eyes- I have those fuck me eyes but thats what I wanted) and I’ve been involved with THE most caring and respectful daddy dom IN THE WORLD. He has shown me things I NEVER thought I would ever feel or expirience in my life. I have a very tumultuous past and it leaves me feeling dirty and unwanted – however through his gentle reminders and painstakingly, mind numbing , life-altering orgasms I find my self debating life and not knowing how to process this. It’s the most electrifying, riveting and exhilarating thing. From the sweet musky smell of him after work to the furious, fierce and passionate look in his eyes lately. They way he validates and cares for me is undeniably the most intriguing and galvanizing thing I’ve ever experienced. Is there such thing as too good to be true ? I want to find a way to work through these feelings and thoughts without saying something I’m afraid he may not be ready to hear – even though I know he knows. He just keeps getting better and better and giving me more and more attention , respect and orgasms (the kind where you’ve cum already like 10 times in under 10 minutes then he gives you even more until I’m basically a puddle of cum and tears crushed between his giant beast sized arms that are incredibly strong and terrifying but undeniably soft and gentle. I also dont know how to show or say my appreciation, how can I show I’m thankful and appreciative of the gifts he has given me?????? I cant….. I dont know what to do. All I can do is cry when he leaves cuz I’m just so thankful and happy!!! Also is saying I want your cock in my ass some what equivalent to I luff you and everything you do to me, cuz if so maybe I’ll go with that to start….although I am wayyy to tight and his cocks been getting bigger everything I see him I swear . 🤣🤣🤣😅🤦‍♀️🧐🧐🧐🥴🤫🙊🙊🙊🙈🙈🙉🙉🙉