How do I bring this up to my therapist? /u/softerection66 Sex

So im a 21 year old man and as far as I can remember my parents would either be fighting or having sex and sometimes both in front of me. When they would fight things would get physical and they would both hit each other and throw shit and tear up the house. And when I mean they would have sex in front me they would especially if we were on vacation and were staying in a one room hotel. I remember one time I woke up to them having sex and I had to pee really bad but I was too embarrassed to get up. Another time when I was a little bit older the power went out in our house in the summer. In there room they had an window ac unit and a generator outside and I put my bed in there. Since there was nothing to do with the power being out I was outside playing with a football by myself. When I went inside for the night I went to my parents room to go to sleep but the door was locked and I heard moaning. So I took a shower and went back to open the door like 20 minutes later but it was still locked. I pounded on the door for like 5 minutes but no one answered. I spent the night on the couch in 85 degree room without a fan and woke up about 10 different time covered in sweat. When I woke up they acted like nothing happened and didn’t know how the door got locked. Although I’ve never been sexually abused or touched in anyway inappropriate I feel I have some sexual trauma.

A few years later my dad found out my mom was cheating on him and that ramped up the fighting even more. We ended moving when I was 15 about 1000 miles away from all my friends and family. I was enrolled in a new school my freshman year but dropped out because of depression and anxiety. I would often cry myself to sleep because I knew how miserable I was going to be at school the next day but neither of parents help me with reassurance at all and never asked me how I was doing. A few years later my dad commit suicide after struggling with drug and health problems. He didn’t leave a note so I went to see if he posted anything on Facebook I found out he was living a second life with another girl and her kids. Not even a month later I seen my mom was texting a bunch of guys and trying to have sex. I’m not 100 percent but I’m pretty sure she left my little sister at home alone when she was asleep.

Now I’m 21 and still a Virgin, social awkward and I feel because of my parents relationship I will never be able to have a healthy relationship with a girl in the future and I feel the best years of my life were wasted. I also fear because of my moms whoreish behaviors its going to effect my sister in the future. I have been seeing a therapist since mid December but we haven’t really talked about any of the sexual trauma. We have talked about my mom cheating and my dad’s second life but nothing sexual or my desire for a relationship. I guess my question is how do I bring this up to my therapist? I find talking about sexual stuff very awkward. Lastly if there is any advice you like to give me that would be appreciated.

So im a 21 year old man and as far as I can remember my parents would either be fighting or having sex and sometimes both in front of me. When they would fight things would get physical and they would both hit each other and throw shit and tear up the house. And when I mean they would have sex in front me they would especially if we were on vacation and were staying in a one room hotel. I remember one time I woke up to them having sex and I had to pee really bad but I was too embarrassed to get up. Another time when I was a little bit older the power went out in our house in the summer. In there room they had an window ac unit and a generator outside and I put my bed in there. Since there was nothing to do with the power being out I was outside playing with a football by myself. When I went inside for the night I went to my parents room to go to sleep but the door was locked and I heard moaning. So I took a shower and went back to open the door like 20 minutes later but it was still locked. I pounded on the door for like 5 minutes but no one answered. I spent the night on the couch in 85 degree room without a fan and woke up about 10 different time covered in sweat. When I woke up they acted like nothing happened and didn’t know how the door got locked. Although I’ve never been sexually abused or touched in anyway inappropriate I feel I have some sexual trauma.

A few years later my dad found out my mom was cheating on him and that ramped up the fighting even more. We ended moving when I was 15 about 1000 miles away from all my friends and family. I was enrolled in a new school my freshman year but dropped out because of depression and anxiety. I would often cry myself to sleep because I knew how miserable I was going to be at school the next day but neither of parents help me with reassurance at all and never asked me how I was doing. A few years later my dad commit suicide after struggling with drug and health problems. He didn’t leave a note so I went to see if he posted anything on Facebook I found out he was living a second life with another girl and her kids. Not even a month later I seen my mom was texting a bunch of guys and trying to have sex. I’m not 100 percent but I’m pretty sure she left my little sister at home alone when she was asleep.

Now I’m 21 and still a Virgin, social awkward and I feel because of my parents relationship I will never be able to have a healthy relationship with a girl in the future and I feel the best years of my life were wasted. I also fear because of my moms whoreish behaviors its going to effect my sister in the future. I have been seeing a therapist since mid December but we haven’t really talked about any of the sexual trauma. We have talked about my mom cheating and my dad’s second life but nothing sexual or my desire for a relationship. I guess my question is how do I bring this up to my therapist? I find talking about sexual stuff very awkward. Lastly if there is any advice you like to give me that would be appreciated.