I know this can be considered controversial but I made a decision a few months ago to stop seeking relationships with women as a 19F. Instead, I decided to seek out relationships with men. Also turned to religion although I’m mostly exploring them in hopes I can pick which one I think is the truth.
However, in my pursuit came a lot of loneliness. I realized my values and beliefs has changed drastically and I don’t enjoy the company I did anymore. Now I have an intense attraction to a few men…because I wanted to grow in my spirituality I’m also trying to be celibate so no masturbation. But honestly too this season of my life is utterly frustrating. I know it’s for the better but I’m going through a lot of growing pains.
Feel like I have two sides to me. Right now my dark shadow side is feeling so uncomfortable and just wants to come out. Honestly wish I could just have plenty sex without the consequences. I feel like I’m going through a second puberty. I’m so awkward and giddy around men I’m interested in and I feel a lot of attraction to men in general that I’ve never felt before. Honestly, the uncomfortable phase will over soon. Hopefully…I honestly don’t even know why I’m like this.
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r/sex I know this can be considered controversial but I made a decision a few months ago to stop seeking relationships with women as a 19F. Instead, I decided to seek out relationships with men. Also turned to religion although I’m mostly exploring them in hopes I can pick which one I think is the truth. However, in my pursuit came a lot of loneliness. I realized my values and beliefs has changed drastically and I don’t enjoy the company I did anymore. Now I have an intense attraction to a few men…because I wanted to grow in my spirituality I’m also trying to be celibate so no masturbation. But honestly too this season of my life is utterly frustrating. I know it’s for the better but I’m going through a lot of growing pains. Feel like I have two sides to me. Right now my dark shadow side is feeling so uncomfortable and just wants to come out. Honestly wish I could just have plenty sex without the consequences. I feel like I’m going through a second puberty. I’m so awkward and giddy around men I’m interested in and I feel a lot of attraction to men in general that I’ve never felt before. Honestly, the uncomfortable phase will over soon. Hopefully…I honestly don’t even know why I’m like this. submitted by /u/reflectiveraisin [link] [comments]
I know this can be considered controversial but I made a decision a few months ago to stop seeking relationships with women as a 19F. Instead, I decided to seek out relationships with men. Also turned to religion although I’m mostly exploring them in hopes I can pick which one I think is the truth.
However, in my pursuit came a lot of loneliness. I realized my values and beliefs has changed drastically and I don’t enjoy the company I did anymore. Now I have an intense attraction to a few men…because I wanted to grow in my spirituality I’m also trying to be celibate so no masturbation. But honestly too this season of my life is utterly frustrating. I know it’s for the better but I’m going through a lot of growing pains.
Feel like I have two sides to me. Right now my dark shadow side is feeling so uncomfortable and just wants to come out. Honestly wish I could just have plenty sex without the consequences. I feel like I’m going through a second puberty. I’m so awkward and giddy around men I’m interested in and I feel a lot of attraction to men in general that I’ve never felt before. Honestly, the uncomfortable phase will over soon. Hopefully…I honestly don’t even know why I’m like this.
submitted by /u/reflectiveraisin
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