Me (M45) nd my wife (F38) have been married for 5 years. We’ve had an amazing marriage. Ton of what I though was intimate sex and everything has been great… until 2 months ago when mistakenly I learned her real sexual past. She has always been a writer and I knew that she journaled but did not expect to stumble across a journal dedicated to her ex whom she has maintained was nothing special to her. Not only that I but learned her true “number” and some other details that shocked. Mind you I never asked her number she always volunteered it was ~10. Come to fine out it was closer to 30 with many many one night stands after her telling she basically has one 1 night stand. One episode was 2 guys in less than 24 hours.
We’ve always been open about our past except details. In fact she mostly has volunteered what I have come to know as lies. Yes I read her journal. It was right there and I guess curiosity killed the cat as they say. I was horrified what I read.
She was head over heels in love with him. He by her words was her everything. There are words and things she says about him that she has never spoken about me.
The detail and exactness that she describes their sex together made me shudder in a type of pain, inadequacy and embarrassment that I have not felt since I was a child. There are intimate details with him that she told me she has never done with anyone. And that she will not share with me. Kissing after oral, wiping him up after he would cum etc. She also describes his member in shocking detail and it is clear that I am no comparison.
At this stage I am mortified and depressed at my penis size and I know after reading these things that she is not satisfied with me. I am certain at this point that I have a micro penis. Not even sure I can afford the surgery. Either way I can cum or stay hard. My wife is extremely attractive. I am now convinced she chose me over him during her “tough” time because she knew I was a better option long term financially.
She stays home with our 3 young kids. She’s a great mother and solid wife but I am now convinced I have never really pleased her in the bedroom. The more I look at “normal”penis sizes I am so embarrassed of myself. I am barely 5” hard and really never measured the right way until now. When I have addressed my penis size with her she has to her credit down played it but it now know she’s had monster men compared to me and she loved it. I just keep asking how long until she wants that again.
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r/sex Me (M45) nd my wife (F38) have been married for 5 years. We’ve had an amazing marriage. Ton of what I though was intimate sex and everything has been great… until 2 months ago when mistakenly I learned her real sexual past. She has always been a writer and I knew that she journaled but did not expect to stumble across a journal dedicated to her ex whom she has maintained was nothing special to her. Not only that I but learned her true “number” and some other details that shocked. Mind you I never asked her number she always volunteered it was ~10. Come to fine out it was closer to 30 with many many one night stands after her telling she basically has one 1 night stand. One episode was 2 guys in less than 24 hours. We’ve always been open about our past except details. In fact she mostly has volunteered what I have come to know as lies. Yes I read her journal. It was right there and I guess curiosity killed the cat as they say. I was horrified what I read. She was head over heels in love with him. He by her words was her everything. There are words and things she says about him that she has never spoken about me. The detail and exactness that she describes their sex together made me shudder in a type of pain, inadequacy and embarrassment that I have not felt since I was a child. There are intimate details with him that she told me she has never done with anyone. And that she will not share with me. Kissing after oral, wiping him up after he would cum etc. She also describes his member in shocking detail and it is clear that I am no comparison. At this stage I am mortified and depressed at my penis size and I know after reading these things that she is not satisfied with me. I am certain at this point that I have a micro penis. Not even sure I can afford the surgery. Either way I can cum or stay hard. My wife is extremely attractive. I am now convinced she chose me over him during her “tough” time because she knew I was a better option long term financially. She stays home with our 3 young kids. She’s a great mother and solid wife but I am now convinced I have never really pleased her in the bedroom. The more I look at “normal”penis sizes I am so embarrassed of myself. I am barely 5” hard and really never measured the right way until now. When I have addressed my penis size with her she has to her credit down played it but it now know she’s had monster men compared to me and she loved it. I just keep asking how long until she wants that again. submitted by /u/nowheretorun2022 [link] [comments]
Me (M45) nd my wife (F38) have been married for 5 years. We’ve had an amazing marriage. Ton of what I though was intimate sex and everything has been great… until 2 months ago when mistakenly I learned her real sexual past. She has always been a writer and I knew that she journaled but did not expect to stumble across a journal dedicated to her ex whom she has maintained was nothing special to her. Not only that I but learned her true “number” and some other details that shocked. Mind you I never asked her number she always volunteered it was ~10. Come to fine out it was closer to 30 with many many one night stands after her telling she basically has one 1 night stand. One episode was 2 guys in less than 24 hours.
We’ve always been open about our past except details. In fact she mostly has volunteered what I have come to know as lies. Yes I read her journal. It was right there and I guess curiosity killed the cat as they say. I was horrified what I read.
She was head over heels in love with him. He by her words was her everything. There are words and things she says about him that she has never spoken about me.
The detail and exactness that she describes their sex together made me shudder in a type of pain, inadequacy and embarrassment that I have not felt since I was a child. There are intimate details with him that she told me she has never done with anyone. And that she will not share with me. Kissing after oral, wiping him up after he would cum etc. She also describes his member in shocking detail and it is clear that I am no comparison.
At this stage I am mortified and depressed at my penis size and I know after reading these things that she is not satisfied with me. I am certain at this point that I have a micro penis. Not even sure I can afford the surgery. Either way I can cum or stay hard. My wife is extremely attractive. I am now convinced she chose me over him during her “tough” time because she knew I was a better option long term financially.
She stays home with our 3 young kids. She’s a great mother and solid wife but I am now convinced I have never really pleased her in the bedroom. The more I look at “normal”penis sizes I am so embarrassed of myself. I am barely 5” hard and really never measured the right way until now. When I have addressed my penis size with her she has to her credit down played it but it now know she’s had monster men compared to me and she loved it. I just keep asking how long until she wants that again.
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