Finally made progress with my sexuality but what to do next? /u/Justchekingstuff Sex

Hi im a 26F and im a virgin. I wanted to write about it but i was tired and i wanted to think before i wrote anything because i was proud but a little embarrassed.

Im a virgin and i decided to start exploring my own sexuality. I struggled for a long time since i lived my life surrounded by religious people in my country, specially in that horrific catholic school. They made me feel that sex and masturbation was disgusting and i felt really ashamed since i always had a high sex drive. Thankfully my family wasn’t that religious and was open but i still felt ashamed.

I came to realize how stupid and idiotic this people were and since i was 20 I started to inform myself for real about sexuality and found it so beautiful and intimate it is, and how there are many ways to experience it.

I started with the usual masturbation method i used to do for years but i wanted to go further. I learned about fingering but i always found it very concerning since, im a virgin, everytime i tried to even use a tampon it hurt.

So i kinda felt really good and proud that i finally made some progress with it.

I prepared myself and the place where i was going to do it and i tried. It took sometime and i goy scared but i relaxed and took my time. Without noticing i had 2 of my fingers half inside and I stopped there so i could experience what is was doing and to feel myself, also my hand hurt for the position i was doing it (my respect for the ones who finger their partners) and hell it was tight, I thought that was an expression.

Anyways, i won’t lie, it did hurt but i was taking my time. I tried to pump my fingers but it didn’t do much for me, didn’t cum but hell i was happy anyways.

It was a very amazing experience, i did something i never thought i could, even if it was halfway through (kinda crying while writing this)

I wanted to ask you guys what would be best to do next or mostly how fast i should take it. I don’t want to have sex until i meet someone i love, since i see sex more emotional connection.

I was thinking to buy a toy, something really and VERY discreet since i still live with my parents due to economics being shit in my country, specially for people my age. Where should i have it or hide it? Should i have it with me?

Also, should i use a condom for fingering? Does it feel the same? Im kinda scared to go further and damage something important or touch something im not exactly supposed to (?)

Anyways sorry this was long but I really appreciate this reddit. Helped me see how natural and beautiful sexuality can be and I don’t feel that horrible anymore. Thanks <3

Hi im a 26F and im a virgin. I wanted to write about it but i was tired and i wanted to think before i wrote anything because i was proud but a little embarrassed.

Im a virgin and i decided to start exploring my own sexuality. I struggled for a long time since i lived my life surrounded by religious people in my country, specially in that horrific catholic school. They made me feel that sex and masturbation was disgusting and i felt really ashamed since i always had a high sex drive. Thankfully my family wasn’t that religious and was open but i still felt ashamed.

I came to realize how stupid and idiotic this people were and since i was 20 I started to inform myself for real about sexuality and found it so beautiful and intimate it is, and how there are many ways to experience it.

I started with the usual masturbation method i used to do for years but i wanted to go further. I learned about fingering but i always found it very concerning since, im a virgin, everytime i tried to even use a tampon it hurt.

So i kinda felt really good and proud that i finally made some progress with it.

I prepared myself and the place where i was going to do it and i tried. It took sometime and i goy scared but i relaxed and took my time. Without noticing i had 2 of my fingers half inside and I stopped there so i could experience what is was doing and to feel myself, also my hand hurt for the position i was doing it (my respect for the ones who finger their partners) and hell it was tight, I thought that was an expression.

Anyways, i won’t lie, it did hurt but i was taking my time. I tried to pump my fingers but it didn’t do much for me, didn’t cum but hell i was happy anyways.

It was a very amazing experience, i did something i never thought i could, even if it was halfway through (kinda crying while writing this)

I wanted to ask you guys what would be best to do next or mostly how fast i should take it. I don’t want to have sex until i meet someone i love, since i see sex more emotional connection.

I was thinking to buy a toy, something really and VERY discreet since i still live with my parents due to economics being shit in my country, specially for people my age. Where should i have it or hide it? Should i have it with me?

Also, should i use a condom for fingering? Does it feel the same? Im kinda scared to go further and damage something important or touch something im not exactly supposed to (?)

Anyways sorry this was long but I really appreciate this reddit. Helped me see how natural and beautiful sexuality can be and I don’t feel that horrible anymore. Thanks <3