How can I show more emotion when giving him head?/Other tips needed. /u/rigatonybolongy Sex

Edit: this is a repost because Reddit was glitching and I couldn’t see my comments. Sorry ///:

throwaway 🙂 I read the FAQ but didn’t see one on my situation.

So, I (22F) have been with my boyfriend (23) for five years. I have been sucking him off for all of those years and he is my first sexual partner.

I have a really hard time with expressing emotions/showing enthusiasm due to a very traumatic upbringing where showing emotions would have gotten me in trouble. I’m in therapy for this and my boyfriend knows of my past.

Me not showing emotion has been a problem for us in our sex life before but it has gotten better as I’ve gotten older and more confident and comfortable with my boyfriend and sex in general.

Recently, my boyfriend told me that while he loves my head because I’m insanely good at it from his perspective, I always seem like that I don’t want to give him head because of my lack of emotion. I also don’t show much emotion while I’m sucking him off.

He has also asked me to be more experimental in his foreplay but I’m clueless on what to do when he only feels things through his dick. I’ve tried kissing his neck and all that but he says that it doesn’t do anything for him. Anal play is a no go for both of us.

My problem is that I really don’t know how to express more emotion during oral. I absolutely do want to give him head and great foreplay, but my mind is always working against me on how.

Any thoughts on how to help show some emotion for him?

Edit: this is a repost because Reddit was glitching and I couldn’t see my comments. Sorry ///:

throwaway 🙂 I read the FAQ but didn’t see one on my situation.

So, I (22F) have been with my boyfriend (23) for five years. I have been sucking him off for all of those years and he is my first sexual partner.

I have a really hard time with expressing emotions/showing enthusiasm due to a very traumatic upbringing where showing emotions would have gotten me in trouble. I’m in therapy for this and my boyfriend knows of my past.

Me not showing emotion has been a problem for us in our sex life before but it has gotten better as I’ve gotten older and more confident and comfortable with my boyfriend and sex in general.

Recently, my boyfriend told me that while he loves my head because I’m insanely good at it from his perspective, I always seem like that I don’t want to give him head because of my lack of emotion. I also don’t show much emotion while I’m sucking him off.

He has also asked me to be more experimental in his foreplay but I’m clueless on what to do when he only feels things through his dick. I’ve tried kissing his neck and all that but he says that it doesn’t do anything for him. Anal play is a no go for both of us.

My problem is that I really don’t know how to express more emotion during oral. I absolutely do want to give him head and great foreplay, but my mind is always working against me on how.

Any thoughts on how to help show some emotion for him?