(20F) I have no idea how it started, but I have a really strange niche kink that I have become obsessive over… I have always had crippling guilt over this and it wreaks havoc on my mental health… and I slipped up ONE day with my search history, I was half asleep and forgot to put it in incognito mode. My parents checked their emails and left their tabs open, one of them being search history. They saw everything… I have spent all night pulling my hair and crying into my pillow… I have no idea where I went so wrong in life and I have never felt so much shame…
This “interest” has eaten so many hours of my time, for absolutely nothing. Moderation has always been out of the question, my will and mind are weak… If I even have an hour of free time I can’t help myself from going on disgusting websites. Has anybody had experience in normalizing themselves after indulging in evil thoughts for so long? I would love advice, and perhaps words of encouragement, I don’t know, maybe I’m just here to vent…
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r/sex (20F) I have no idea how it started, but I have a really strange niche kink that I have become obsessive over… I have always had crippling guilt over this and it wreaks havoc on my mental health… and I slipped up ONE day with my search history, I was half asleep and forgot to put it in incognito mode. My parents checked their emails and left their tabs open, one of them being search history. They saw everything… I have spent all night pulling my hair and crying into my pillow… I have no idea where I went so wrong in life and I have never felt so much shame… This “interest” has eaten so many hours of my time, for absolutely nothing. Moderation has always been out of the question, my will and mind are weak… If I even have an hour of free time I can’t help myself from going on disgusting websites. Has anybody had experience in normalizing themselves after indulging in evil thoughts for so long? I would love advice, and perhaps words of encouragement, I don’t know, maybe I’m just here to vent… submitted by /u/weirdthrowawayhelpme [link] [comments]
(20F) I have no idea how it started, but I have a really strange niche kink that I have become obsessive over… I have always had crippling guilt over this and it wreaks havoc on my mental health… and I slipped up ONE day with my search history, I was half asleep and forgot to put it in incognito mode. My parents checked their emails and left their tabs open, one of them being search history. They saw everything… I have spent all night pulling my hair and crying into my pillow… I have no idea where I went so wrong in life and I have never felt so much shame…
This “interest” has eaten so many hours of my time, for absolutely nothing. Moderation has always been out of the question, my will and mind are weak… If I even have an hour of free time I can’t help myself from going on disgusting websites. Has anybody had experience in normalizing themselves after indulging in evil thoughts for so long? I would love advice, and perhaps words of encouragement, I don’t know, maybe I’m just here to vent…
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