she told me this morning that she wants to stay celibate, and I kind of think its due to our experience last night /u/percc30_popcicle Sex

I feel really bad. I’ve been dating this girl for 2 months and she told me this morning that she wants to stay celibate, and I kind of think its due to our experience last night. It was our date night and we had a few drinks and back at my place things got really intimate for the first time.

It was going pretty great and I was constantly asking her if she was okay while everything was going on. Then as soon as she decides that she wants to have sex with me for the first time, she asked me if I had protection and in that little moment of getting up and trying to put a condom on I just go limp.. I can’t even penetrate it was the most embarrassing feeling in the world. After we kind of just stop and cuddle for a bit. I felt horrible this is the first time that we were going to have sex and this had to happen.

Soon after she kind of just goes silent and doesn’t even talk or anything, I start to worry a little bit and begin to reassure her. I drop her off a little later and I was checking in on her if she was okay and she was just kind of dry with all of her answers. She ended up calling me and she explained that she was just thinking about a lot. I was telling her if she’d like to talk about it, but she just told me that she didn’t want me to take it the wrong way.

This morning everything went well we followed through with our plans and she even bought me lunch. Later on in the day she brought up last night for a bit and we made a couple jokes and that was when she told me that she just wants to stay celibate. She’s only slept with one other person and I would have been the second that night and I honestly feel like I ruined what could have been a special moment for us. She’s told me before that she wanted to wait till marriage, but things would always heat up and we’d end up kissing and touching a bit, but last night was the first time she ever let me touch her in those ways.

I don’t know what to really do I’m down with whatever decision she makes since she is honestly the only person that I see myself being with from now on and she’s honestly one of the coolest people that I have ever met. I don’t know if I’m just overthinking everything but god I feel beyond embarrassed. I don’t have anyone to really turn too about topics like this so any advice helps.

Thank you..

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EDIT: I honestly think another reason is due to my past of having a lot of sexual partners.

I feel really bad. I’ve been dating this girl for 2 months and she told me this morning that she wants to stay celibate, and I kind of think its due to our experience last night. It was our date night and we had a few drinks and back at my place things got really intimate for the first time.

It was going pretty great and I was constantly asking her if she was okay while everything was going on. Then as soon as she decides that she wants to have sex with me for the first time, she asked me if I had protection and in that little moment of getting up and trying to put a condom on I just go limp.. I can’t even penetrate it was the most embarrassing feeling in the world. After we kind of just stop and cuddle for a bit. I felt horrible this is the first time that we were going to have sex and this had to happen.

Soon after she kind of just goes silent and doesn’t even talk or anything, I start to worry a little bit and begin to reassure her. I drop her off a little later and I was checking in on her if she was okay and she was just kind of dry with all of her answers. She ended up calling me and she explained that she was just thinking about a lot. I was telling her if she’d like to talk about it, but she just told me that she didn’t want me to take it the wrong way.

This morning everything went well we followed through with our plans and she even bought me lunch. Later on in the day she brought up last night for a bit and we made a couple jokes and that was when she told me that she just wants to stay celibate. She’s only slept with one other person and I would have been the second that night and I honestly feel like I ruined what could have been a special moment for us. She’s told me before that she wanted to wait till marriage, but things would always heat up and we’d end up kissing and touching a bit, but last night was the first time she ever let me touch her in those ways.

I don’t know what to really do I’m down with whatever decision she makes since she is honestly the only person that I see myself being with from now on and she’s honestly one of the coolest people that I have ever met. I don’t know if I’m just overthinking everything but god I feel beyond embarrassed. I don’t have anyone to really turn too about topics like this so any advice helps.

Thank you..

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EDIT: I honestly think another reason is due to my past of having a lot of sexual partners.