Told my girlfriend my kink and it did not go well /u/posthera Sex

For context, my 24M) girlfriend (22F) is very strongly opposed to porn. I understand that and even though I used to watch it, I’ve not watched it or even really thought about it since our relationship began, out of love and respect for her wishes. I had been thinking lately, should I tell her about a kink I want to try with her? I only thought about it because recently she mentioned a friend (not named) who had a “crazy fetish”. That’s what started my thinking about my own kink. I’m pretty vanilla though, it’s just a praise kink and even then I’ve never actually had an opportunity to try it, I had only ever seen it in porn. To reiterate, I had discovered this through porn well before our relationship started. No past person, past relationship (this is my first and only real romantic relationship), no friends told me about it, i.e. porn just happened to be the way I learned about it. When I brought up the kink, at some point in describing it I said the words “yeah it did it for me”, and she then paused and asked if I had found that through porn. I answered honestly and said yes. She reacted strongly, expressing that she felt disgusted and that she “wouldn’t act out porn scenes I’m thinking about while we’re doing stuff”. I don’t know how to move around this or sort through it, because I genuinely don’t think about porn or anything else when I’m with her, and I’ve told her this. We’ve talked about it thoroughly and it hasn’t changed anything so far. I can’t change my past or how I came to learn about something. What do I do? I feel like it took a lot for me to be vulnerable like that and it really hurt me the way she reacted.

For context, my 24M) girlfriend (22F) is very strongly opposed to porn. I understand that and even though I used to watch it, I’ve not watched it or even really thought about it since our relationship began, out of love and respect for her wishes. I had been thinking lately, should I tell her about a kink I want to try with her? I only thought about it because recently she mentioned a friend (not named) who had a “crazy fetish”. That’s what started my thinking about my own kink. I’m pretty vanilla though, it’s just a praise kink and even then I’ve never actually had an opportunity to try it, I had only ever seen it in porn. To reiterate, I had discovered this through porn well before our relationship started. No past person, past relationship (this is my first and only real romantic relationship), no friends told me about it, i.e. porn just happened to be the way I learned about it. When I brought up the kink, at some point in describing it I said the words “yeah it did it for me”, and she then paused and asked if I had found that through porn. I answered honestly and said yes. She reacted strongly, expressing that she felt disgusted and that she “wouldn’t act out porn scenes I’m thinking about while we’re doing stuff”. I don’t know how to move around this or sort through it, because I genuinely don’t think about porn or anything else when I’m with her, and I’ve told her this. We’ve talked about it thoroughly and it hasn’t changed anything so far. I can’t change my past or how I came to learn about something. What do I do? I feel like it took a lot for me to be vulnerable like that and it really hurt me the way she reacted.