I didn’t know sex would be so overwhelming /u/throwawayimsorrry Sex

I don’t know what I expected with having sex but it isn’t as good as I imagined. I got married a couple months ago and we had sex for the first time. I was excited for it but also nervous before we got married. Now I just can’t believe in a way that I have to do this for my whole life practically every day. I love my husband and want to make him happy, but it’s a lot.

I knew it would probably hurt on our wedding night and it did but it was worse than I imagined. I felt bad because I wanted to stop but my husband waited a really long time for this. He was a little mad at me but he was enjoying it so I tried to also enjoy it. But I feel ashamed and guilty when I look back on our wedding night. I just wish it was the perfect night i had imagined. I hate that I let him down and kept complaining.

I feel the worst when he accidentally cums too fast. I don’t really understand why he gets so mad. I guess he wants it to go on for longer? He gets frustrated and angry and I feel really guilty for it. Usually it’s because I’m too tight and he says he can’t stop it from happening. I don’t even mean to be tight, I’m not trying to do anything different. He’s the one that’s going on and out. I can’t figure out what I’m doing wrong or how to stop it so he can go for longer. Also this issue isn’t all the time, usually it lasts forever like 20 or 30 minutes even. But sometimes this happens and I hate it. He just gets mad and I can’t tell how to fix it

It just feels like a lot to have to always do this. last night, I was asleep and I felt my pants and underwear being pulled down and he was on top of me. I woke up feeling really frightened. It kind of felt violating being stripped like that. I tried to hold up my pants and I told him we should go back to sleep but he insisted and said he needed me right then. I didn’t really have an option and he just did it until he finished and then that was it. I know it’s fine but I felt kind of dirty after. It just didn’t make me feel good. Not even physically but mentally, I just felt kind of used. I know that’s mean to say about my husband but it’s just how I feel. He’s done stuff like that that’s few times now and I just feel embarrassed every time.

I guess I thought sex would be fun at least but I just feel a bit scared when it comes time for it. And he gets pretty rough a lot and sometimes that hurts or feels a bit scary. I’ve told him to slow down or be gentle but he says it feels too good to be gentle. And he gets really rough every time that he cums. I really am grateful that he’s so attracted to me but it’s just a lot to handle. I’m not sure if I was ready for marriage after all. I feel a bit stupid in all of this

He does say sorry afterwards usually. He doesn’t really understand how it’s difficult for me and I’ve tried to explain it but I think he’s disappointed I feel this way or he thinks I don’t want to be with him. Which isn’t true at all, it’s just different than I expected. It’s just kind of depressing, you know?

I don’t know what I expected with having sex but it isn’t as good as I imagined. I got married a couple months ago and we had sex for the first time. I was excited for it but also nervous before we got married. Now I just can’t believe in a way that I have to do this for my whole life practically every day. I love my husband and want to make him happy, but it’s a lot.

I knew it would probably hurt on our wedding night and it did but it was worse than I imagined. I felt bad because I wanted to stop but my husband waited a really long time for this. He was a little mad at me but he was enjoying it so I tried to also enjoy it. But I feel ashamed and guilty when I look back on our wedding night. I just wish it was the perfect night i had imagined. I hate that I let him down and kept complaining.

I feel the worst when he accidentally cums too fast. I don’t really understand why he gets so mad. I guess he wants it to go on for longer? He gets frustrated and angry and I feel really guilty for it. Usually it’s because I’m too tight and he says he can’t stop it from happening. I don’t even mean to be tight, I’m not trying to do anything different. He’s the one that’s going on and out. I can’t figure out what I’m doing wrong or how to stop it so he can go for longer. Also this issue isn’t all the time, usually it lasts forever like 20 or 30 minutes even. But sometimes this happens and I hate it. He just gets mad and I can’t tell how to fix it

It just feels like a lot to have to always do this. last night, I was asleep and I felt my pants and underwear being pulled down and he was on top of me. I woke up feeling really frightened. It kind of felt violating being stripped like that. I tried to hold up my pants and I told him we should go back to sleep but he insisted and said he needed me right then. I didn’t really have an option and he just did it until he finished and then that was it. I know it’s fine but I felt kind of dirty after. It just didn’t make me feel good. Not even physically but mentally, I just felt kind of used. I know that’s mean to say about my husband but it’s just how I feel. He’s done stuff like that that’s few times now and I just feel embarrassed every time.

I guess I thought sex would be fun at least but I just feel a bit scared when it comes time for it. And he gets pretty rough a lot and sometimes that hurts or feels a bit scary. I’ve told him to slow down or be gentle but he says it feels too good to be gentle. And he gets really rough every time that he cums. I really am grateful that he’s so attracted to me but it’s just a lot to handle. I’m not sure if I was ready for marriage after all. I feel a bit stupid in all of this

He does say sorry afterwards usually. He doesn’t really understand how it’s difficult for me and I’ve tried to explain it but I think he’s disappointed I feel this way or he thinks I don’t want to be with him. Which isn’t true at all, it’s just different than I expected. It’s just kind of depressing, you know?