A couple of weeks ago my gf of 5 years (who I currently live with) woke me up in a state asking me about some photos on my phone she had found that I had taken of myself wearing some lingerie.
I was mortified as I had initially kept them in a locked app but saved a few photos to my main camera roll before going to bed when I was really drunk (i don’t even remember doing it) and she made me show her the rest. Im not to sure why I took them in first place, it is just a curiosity into a weird kink I guess I’m a bit confused sexually atm.
She was very upset and asked the questions you would expect. She said she seemed more upset that I never told her and did it behind her back. Which is fair, but I subtly found this pretty hypercritical cause there is stuff I know she has kept from me in the past, and those photos were something I wanted to keep extremely private, but that’s another story.
I was in tears for the first time in 5 years in front of her out of embarrassment and anxiety, I even had a panic attack which was also a first. She seemed to calm down as I was saying I would understand if she wanted to break up and I would start packing my things.
She basically said she still loves me but doesn’t like that I had done it and doesn’t want me to do it again as she doesn’t like the idea of me being un-masculine. I agreed. Now a few weeks have past and everything seems to be normal but I can’t shake the feeling of humiliation and the thought of her seeing the photos makes me cringe, and I’m not entirely sure if this will change how she feels about me forever.
It’s definitely effecting the way I want to open up to her and I am being a bit distant out pure embarrassment. If this continues to turn into a bigger problem and we have to seperate, I feel so vulnerable that she knows such a sensitive piece of information about me and I don’t trust she wouldn’t tell her friends (we have a similar friend group) this would ruin me. I don’t even know for sure if she hasn’t told anyone now.
I want to talk to her about this but I just can’t physically or mentally bring myself to talk about it again. I’m not to sure what to do from here
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r/sex A couple of weeks ago my gf of 5 years (who I currently live with) woke me up in a state asking me about some photos on my phone she had found that I had taken of myself wearing some lingerie. I was mortified as I had initially kept them in a locked app but saved a few photos to my main camera roll before going to bed when I was really drunk (i don’t even remember doing it) and she made me show her the rest. Im not to sure why I took them in first place, it is just a curiosity into a weird kink I guess I’m a bit confused sexually atm. She was very upset and asked the questions you would expect. She said she seemed more upset that I never told her and did it behind her back. Which is fair, but I subtly found this pretty hypercritical cause there is stuff I know she has kept from me in the past, and those photos were something I wanted to keep extremely private, but that’s another story. I was in tears for the first time in 5 years in front of her out of embarrassment and anxiety, I even had a panic attack which was also a first. She seemed to calm down as I was saying I would understand if she wanted to break up and I would start packing my things. She basically said she still loves me but doesn’t like that I had done it and doesn’t want me to do it again as she doesn’t like the idea of me being un-masculine. I agreed. Now a few weeks have past and everything seems to be normal but I can’t shake the feeling of humiliation and the thought of her seeing the photos makes me cringe, and I’m not entirely sure if this will change how she feels about me forever. It’s definitely effecting the way I want to open up to her and I am being a bit distant out pure embarrassment. If this continues to turn into a bigger problem and we have to seperate, I feel so vulnerable that she knows such a sensitive piece of information about me and I don’t trust she wouldn’t tell her friends (we have a similar friend group) this would ruin me. I don’t even know for sure if she hasn’t told anyone now. I want to talk to her about this but I just can’t physically or mentally bring myself to talk about it again. I’m not to sure what to do from here submitted by /u/438927 [link] [comments]
A couple of weeks ago my gf of 5 years (who I currently live with) woke me up in a state asking me about some photos on my phone she had found that I had taken of myself wearing some lingerie.
I was mortified as I had initially kept them in a locked app but saved a few photos to my main camera roll before going to bed when I was really drunk (i don’t even remember doing it) and she made me show her the rest. Im not to sure why I took them in first place, it is just a curiosity into a weird kink I guess I’m a bit confused sexually atm.
She was very upset and asked the questions you would expect. She said she seemed more upset that I never told her and did it behind her back. Which is fair, but I subtly found this pretty hypercritical cause there is stuff I know she has kept from me in the past, and those photos were something I wanted to keep extremely private, but that’s another story.
I was in tears for the first time in 5 years in front of her out of embarrassment and anxiety, I even had a panic attack which was also a first. She seemed to calm down as I was saying I would understand if she wanted to break up and I would start packing my things.
She basically said she still loves me but doesn’t like that I had done it and doesn’t want me to do it again as she doesn’t like the idea of me being un-masculine. I agreed. Now a few weeks have past and everything seems to be normal but I can’t shake the feeling of humiliation and the thought of her seeing the photos makes me cringe, and I’m not entirely sure if this will change how she feels about me forever.
It’s definitely effecting the way I want to open up to her and I am being a bit distant out pure embarrassment. If this continues to turn into a bigger problem and we have to seperate, I feel so vulnerable that she knows such a sensitive piece of information about me and I don’t trust she wouldn’t tell her friends (we have a similar friend group) this would ruin me. I don’t even know for sure if she hasn’t told anyone now.
I want to talk to her about this but I just can’t physically or mentally bring myself to talk about it again. I’m not to sure what to do from here
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