Does anybody relate? /u/confessionado Sex

Hey there. I [18F] got broken up with a month or two ago and am in the proces of healing from it. It has its ups and downs like everything, but one thing i cannot shake.

I keep having intimate dreams with x. X was my first and only sexual partner so it makes sence that i have those, but these feel different compared to the ones i used to have when we were together.

I just feel confused and conflicted. I really loved having sex and want to quite badly, but it feels wrong to just jump into hookup culture for me (nothing wrong for people who enjoy it, it is just not for me because of my demisexual orientation).

I am 1000% not ready for a new partner. I first need to heal myself from all the trauma X caused me and just take care of myself in general.

It is clear that this will just take time and pass eventually, but i would really like to be at the point where i can just toutch myself without my thoughts drifting towards x’s body. Or take a shower without feeling filthy that i let him toutch me.

X never SAd me, i just feel extremely betrayed by what he did knowing he had a plan to break up before he actually pulled the plug.

So yeah i just want to know if im not alone in this. It feels weird and wrong so i really need the conformation if more people have this or not. I already feel alone enough as is and i am not close enough with my parents to talk about this.

I will try my best to bring this up in therapy. It still scares me but i will try. In the meantime i just need some unbiased advice from stranges because i have literaly nobody else 🙂

Thank you and have a good day.

Hey there. I [18F] got broken up with a month or two ago and am in the proces of healing from it. It has its ups and downs like everything, but one thing i cannot shake.

I keep having intimate dreams with x. X was my first and only sexual partner so it makes sence that i have those, but these feel different compared to the ones i used to have when we were together.

I just feel confused and conflicted. I really loved having sex and want to quite badly, but it feels wrong to just jump into hookup culture for me (nothing wrong for people who enjoy it, it is just not for me because of my demisexual orientation).

I am 1000% not ready for a new partner. I first need to heal myself from all the trauma X caused me and just take care of myself in general.

It is clear that this will just take time and pass eventually, but i would really like to be at the point where i can just toutch myself without my thoughts drifting towards x’s body. Or take a shower without feeling filthy that i let him toutch me.

X never SAd me, i just feel extremely betrayed by what he did knowing he had a plan to break up before he actually pulled the plug.

So yeah i just want to know if im not alone in this. It feels weird and wrong so i really need the conformation if more people have this or not. I already feel alone enough as is and i am not close enough with my parents to talk about this.

I will try my best to bring this up in therapy. It still scares me but i will try. In the meantime i just need some unbiased advice from stranges because i have literaly nobody else 🙂

Thank you and have a good day.