Crying after masturbation /u/Throwaway22225577 Sex

I (f) cry almost all times after penetrative masturbation, but never after any other kind.

I haven’t had penetrative sex with either gender so I can’t speak for that, though both have tried with fingers and it’s just painful, I tend to refer to that issue as psychological vaginismus. I’m wondering if that is connected?

I have sexual trauma. But none penetrative to my knowledge which is why I’m confused, surely if it was about the trauma I would cry after non penetrative sex / masturbation?

Does anyone else have any ideas?

I (f) cry almost all times after penetrative masturbation, but never after any other kind.

I haven’t had penetrative sex with either gender so I can’t speak for that, though both have tried with fingers and it’s just painful, I tend to refer to that issue as psychological vaginismus. I’m wondering if that is connected?

I have sexual trauma. But none penetrative to my knowledge which is why I’m confused, surely if it was about the trauma I would cry after non penetrative sex / masturbation?

Does anyone else have any ideas?